XiaO Hei~

2010-01-27T16:59:00.005+08:00

Pauline's BIG DAY! (:

I pray that this married couple shall be under God's grace. Happy blissful marriage!!
Alex & Pauline! (:

12th december 2009

The JP girls and I

Personal Trainers

Amore Fitness

2009-08-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

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I just cant describe this joy i have right now. I've just added Joey on FB yesterday and i just realized she has a 3 months old SON! im glad that this boy will be growing up in a secure family that knows Jesus. Im so grateful to Daddy God because he left even breadcrumbs on the table for puppies. im so blessed to meet Joey in my life even before i really came to know Jesus.

It was this women of God that has impacted my life with the things she has done in my life. If it wasnt for her, i think my life would still be in a mess now. Lord, i pray that you bless and protect this family in Jesus name. They shall live a life to glorify you.

Amen!

2009-07-30T23:33:00.001+08:00

I declare this day to be an AWESOME THURSDAY! (:

1st of all, I had enough sleep. 2ndly I woke up on time for work! 3rdly, I heard Pastor Lian preaching in my ipod. :D

I'm listening to Pastor Lian's message now (where is God?). This is such a GOOD message! I don't remember hearing the full message of this sermon maybe I fell asleep. But, praise God for e technology we have now. (:

This phrase really broke my day into excitement & joy. "In every situations you are in, God is with you IN that situation. Bring Jesus in." And "exceedingly abundantly above all you ask or think of according to the power at works in us... "

To be real to myself, I have such days that are so DRY! I face situations at work, be it quotas, people I meet & the expectations I have in myself. I felt so tiny & weak, even though I asked God to keep me safe for the day & bless me in every aspect that I'm in.

But every time I look back. It isn't because I have "DONE". It was because I dint live the expectation of God in those situations I lived in.

"In every situations you are in, God is with you IN that situation. Bring Jesus in."

I'm just gonna hold on to this word and chew on this TODAY! (: GOD IS WITH ME IN EVERY SITUATION I AM IN.

As I was walking my way out of my estate, crossing the traffic light.. A bird poo dropped and MISSED me in just a few CMs!! WHAO! Then today's devotional came ALIVE to me!! HE DELIVERED ME OF BIRD POO IN JUST AFEW MINS AGO!

" Psalm 91:33

Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence. "

2009-07-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

2009-07-14T09:10:00.000+08:00

As I was meditating on what pastor mark preached yesterday. I realised that ALL THE WHILE, I've been too HARD on myself. Why do I keep others secret so well was because I kept my own darkest secrets well. Pastor was preaching about parental love. I really love the part where he could link an act of love of a earthly father and our heavenly father.

Years ago, I remember there was a overseas preacher who was preaching in e prospective of a earthly father. Saying that the children looks up to their father, respect their fathers. At that moment, I thought that message was crap because I've never really received any fatherly love and I felt that the message wasn't for me.

But as pastor was preaching yesterday, tears just flowed down. I was being separate from my family for a period of time, time to time.. I changed accommodations, meaning different houses, different guardians. I've never really knew what was parental love.

At the age of 13, I moved back with my mum. Our relationship was so bad that...... She "may" be a key figure in my life as my mum, but she has her flaws too. I never felt she should have authority over me when she had no contribution for e past 7yrs away from me.

I realized after yesterday's preaching that how impt LOVE is. Nobody have ever said they love me, that was why I became a person with least emotions. Being very hard of myself. All I ever wanted to do is only do things that benefited myself. A lot of self efforts. But still I thank Daddy God for his grace that he delivered me out. I realized that, it is so impt to hear "I LOVE YOU" out of that person's lips rather than just "knowing" he/she should love you. Its easy to say "Jesus loves me" but its different when he says "I LOVE YOU IVY". (:

Ps: Daddy God, teach me how to love myself. How can I love others when I can't even love myself?

2009-06-30T13:08:00.000+08:00

Whao.. Daddy God! Am I still seeing the same Ivy who was so strong in faith blogging about you? I was so amazed when I read through them and it was indeed YOUR footprint in my life! Where has such assurance and faith of your gone?

3 months has past since I last updated. I'm a QUALIFIED PERSONAL TRAINER now and I know it is by YOUR GRACE here I stand. I'm being shuffled out again, now into a unisex gym. Lord, every time when I look to myself I get smaller and smaller. PLEASE Lord! Lift my head up so that I can see ur glory again.

Sermons & services are speaking but not dropping deep into my heart yet! Lord, whatever pastor preached.. Actualize it in my life. The full blessings of Abraham because of Jesus.

Coach has officially "graduate" me out of arrow. I remember the prayer he prayed over me was so good that it was too difficult to believe! Lord, although I had little faith in you, but I know that your words are the promises & truth u've set me UP for.

For I'll be ABOVE & NOT BENEATH. I'll be the HEAD & NOT e tail. Thank you lord. Place me in your perfect moment of Qara. Being at the right place, at at right time. (;

2009-03-11T21:12:00.002+08:00

His love is really awesome! :D

i was doing the usual things as i was going to work, board the bus, pluck my earphones in listening to whatever that is randomly playing. the moment i alighted, the morning ray were shinning at me. i could feel the heat, the glare and the air we breath. Deep in, i thank the Lord for keeping me here to see these daily wonders. Thanking him that i could still see LIGHT, FEEL the heat and BREATH. I believe there're people out there struggling to see the morning daylight or even having difficulties to breath. We're taking all these things for granted daily.

All im trying to say is, whatever it is. Daddy God remains FAITHFUL. Just like what i've shared yesterday about the sun.Imagine, if Daddy God doesnt keep to his words. We might have darkness at any moments! NO LIGHT AT ALL. I feel very secured that he said that He's the way, the truth and the LIGHT. With him, our lives and paths can only shine brighter NOT ~~dimmer~~! (:

I really thank him for closing another deal for me.Nothing is TOO big for him. DARE TO DRAW FROM HIM! :D Anyways, we had meeting today and "X" person came in with a cold shoulder. Whom we used to be quite close until somethings happened, which i felt guilty over. But, in actual fact,i dint think i've done anything wrong. Anyways, we dint have any conversations. I could still feel the negative current from her. Somehow, Daddy God spoke to me in a soft voice. He said, "why are you seeking her approval of your presences?" It really builds me up, it doesnt matter how she viewed me, but how Daddy thinks about me.

Yes, i may still see her in the company, but all i need to do is just to concentrate on my job. Not about her approval! (: This really comforts me. :D

2009-03-10T20:32:00.002+08:00

so far so good. :D

Daddy God has been faithful, like what i've shared in CG. His love is truly amazing and unexpected. sometimes it's really difficult to live without sight but with faith. But, knowing what the cross has qualify me makes me more than a conqueror in life. I believe Daddy God has SET me up for BLESSINGS.Where-ever or which-ever im placed, im bound to has his blessing flowing through me.

Just before i left. the part-timer came in and told me "not bad! you're selling! everytime i come i see new contract on the board." Come to think of it, It was Daddy God! I've never expected her to even wanna try purchasing. when i was back home, i saw the moon shinning very brightly. I realized we tend to take the sun for granted? morning being hot burning sun, night being cool and windy. But God is so amazing when he created the universe. the sun never stops shinning! if the sun never stop shinning, how would God's love stop pouring on you?

i was taking a good look at my toe nail which was fully DETACHED(even the root of the nail) out. i never imagine how am i gonna have a full grown normal nail again since the root came out as well. BUT, God's creation is AMAZING! i checked, seeing partially of it is growing out already! Praise God man!

2009-02-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

((: It was indeed a joyful day! (:

been very radical about the anointing oil recently. been anointing myself with it few times before i start reading up and even sat for my exam with it on the PC. believing that he'll be my wisdom to answer the questions or even to leave a impressionable memory in my mind like a photograph.

been standing infront of the anatomy poster for at least 15-20mins trying to locate the muscles and bones and trying to SPELL CALCANEUS!

cal⋅ca⋅ne⋅us
/kælˈkeɪniəs/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [kal-key-nee-uhs] Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun, plural -ne⋅i /-niˌaɪ/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [-nee-ahy] Show IPA Pronunciation .
1. Anatomy. the largest tarsal bone, forming the prominence of the heel.
2. Zoology. the corresponding bone in other vertebrates.
Also, calcaneum.
Also called heel bone.

Origin:
1920–25; < LL: heel, n. use of calcāneus of the heel; see calcaneum

Daddy God has been faithful for what i've been asking for. even though the exam was abit screwed up. but, im glad that i've got it over and done with. (: i believe i'll score this round with flying colours. saw vivian again during the exam. (:

anyway, all glory goes to him. not me.. i dint really do much of revision actually, it was really based on past memories. (: it wasnt as difficult as i thought it would be.

PT cert HERE I COME!

2009-02-17T22:48:00.001+08:00

Daddy God is faithful! (:

im experiencing my first 30fold. (:

i believe 60 and 100 FOLD SHALL COME ON IT'S WAY!

2009-02-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

because of your blood and your finished work, there is therefore now no condemnation.

I believe and im waiting to see my 100fold to come to past. the amount he dropped in my heart was an amount i couldnt believe i really sowed.

2008-12-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

To anybody out there trying for a baby,

i just felt like posting this after my walk back from the mrt station home.

Ladies, if you have been trying for a baby. Dont give up! have a good expectation of God. Put not your faith in your womb but in Daddy God. For he.. he made abraham and sarah the parent of many even at that old age. it might seem impossible for you if any doctor has declare the report to you.

Slap the doctor back with a positive attitude.that process of having a baby is a enjoyment. Place your trust in the Lord, what seem impossible to you is natural to him! look at sarah! at her old age(natural) she was not able to get pregnant, but when she trusted in the Lord. here comes the child!

Ladies, you're the child of Daddy God. Daughters of sarah! MOTHER OF MANY!

i'll be believing with you! 2009 plenty of cute chubby babies to come!

2008-12-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

Thank you Abba father. Im grateful for all you've done.

(:

Im looking forward for 2009 to come. I know that you've prepare a feast for me in this coming year. You shall watch over every single incident that is going to happen and turn it around to bless me abundantly! I shall not boast about my Love for you, but your Love for me. It's your love that holds everything together.

2008-12-13T23:18:00.002+08:00

ARGH!

im so sick of dieting and disciplining myself to workout. totally feel like giving up and not do the demo and draw myself out from Miss Fitness. It's really depressing when people with HUNKY MUSCULAR BODIES telling you, "You have alot to work on cos of ur BABYFATS". i know im fat alright? if i ever fall into depression i'll feel so STUPID.

im lacking of energy. mentally and physically. i cant even do 70lb squat! what the heck? my strongest was like loading 50-60kg into the bar. compared to it, i feel so lousy now! totally lack of motivation.

2008-12-10T23:33:00.001+08:00

Being reshuffled to ParkMall with effect from 1st Jan 2009.

2008-12-09T20:36:00.007+08:00

Results for stand chard 10km women cat.

2908 65511 SOH MEI YOKE IVY F [SIN] SIN 8:14:57 8:21:52 1:26:55 1:20:00

cant really see though, but this is the only one i can find. HAAA

pretty proud of it. i believe there's room for improvement. im getting ADDICTED to runs! OMG. i hope we'll run as a caregroup next yr's addidas sundown.

shall aim for a better timing. (: hoping to run 1/2 marathon(stand chard's) next yr.

2008-11-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

im running dry again. i know i shouldn't let such things affect me but all these things are so real! im gonna hit my 2nd month of ZERO again! moral has even gone down more. although i confessed that im the righteousness of God and everything shall go right in Jesus' name.

But it isn't coming at all. Daddy God.. why is it so? Daddy God, can you bring me by the collar and dip me into your river of grace again? like in the month of September. I've confess that although it may be SLOW, BUT IT WILL SURELY COME. my faith is being shaken by such a small issue. How could this be so?

Daddy God, im gonna ASK abundantly. YOU"RE GONNA BLESS ME A TOTAL OF 3MTHS QUOTA SALES NEXT MONTH! and you shall give more than i asked for! (:

AMEN! by Jesus' blood!

2008-11-16T00:47:00.002+08:00

CHUI AH

practical test was ARGH..(stated as above).

Anyways, EXAM FEVER IS(PRESENT TENSE) finally OVER!! im not gonna worry about the outcome. Because it would not even change the fact that i'll either pass or fail. so why not spend all these worrying time to START focusing on WORK. YES! WORK! STOP LAZING AROUND IVY!

Now that i dont have to stick my eyes on my textbook anymore, i hope i'll have more time, energy(physically and mentally) and FAVOR to do all these things i've been missing out. like my trainings. GOSH.. getting soo soo fat.

UPdates about cg.
still unfamiliar with names and faces. well, like i said.. when there's quality in a place it will SURELY multiply fruitfully but just that how many of this multitude are FAITHFUL?

i think this apply to my company as well. i think they should really treasure those who are faithful. Raise their platform for goodness sake. i've thought over it. is PT a QUALITY SERVICE? if it is, it will surely XXXXX!! MULTIPLY. well, i think i really still need some time to polish up myself. or rather, let the christ in me shine at work. (:

Joseph told me that on the month of sept, God showed grace to me. i asked he gave. And maybe because it was the revelation i had before that and God gave. well, renew my revelation Lord. Let everyday be a fresh day and have a refreshing sense of love everyday.

ONLY PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT FEAR.

:D

2008-11-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Fic....

i was praying all along that Jesus will be the one doing the exams. :P i was pretty stressed up before the exam until i realized. only if i gave up, he takes over. i dont care what are the outcome like. i'll just believe that he had did a great job for me. i'll just accept the result when its out. (:

i had a soft and strong affirmation voice in me. He told me, ask boldly and i'll get. he assured me a position. and a dream car i had in mind. i dont know how is it gonna be done. but im just gonna flow with this word i have with him now.

Daddy God, i really pray that you see what i really desire and grant me all of the benefits that you have promised. like wisdom, long life, prosperity and.. you know it. (: AND SALES!

"ask and you shall be given." (:

2008-11-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

thank you daddy God!

after so much shaking and lies from the devil. the light has overcome the darkness. Im feeling so much better after today's cg. although im just a visitor. im glad Daddy anointed my fingers and my guitar. i know i cant play by myself.

the burden got lifted up my shoulders. And i know that my foundation is on the unshakable rock. my emotion might be shaken by the world, but i have to always look back at my foundation which i come from.

his word is unshakable. His promises are TRUE. The devil has lost his tooth over me! FIC is just 5 days away. im sure Daddy God will not forsake me at this moment of time. In this moment of trial, let his grace, power and love be shined upon me! let the people of the world see and envy this child of God. Knowing, by myself i cant do anything. but it's his Love that makes all things possible by God.

Thank you Jesus for the blood for redeeming me and making me the heir of the inheritance that God has promised.

2008-10-29T23:11:00.003+08:00

life is tough.

2 more days till month ends. Daddy God, where's your promise?

I had the same emotions when i dint manage to do my flash test last yr. which i broke into silent tears. it happened today. I felt so so depressed which i couldn't relate to anyone at work. that's the worst feeling ever.

i decided to flip to my Daddy's word for answer.
He showed me Matthew 7:7

King James Bible
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

Have i not been asking or seeking?

at this point of time, i really felt like giving up. i was glad when Joseph sms-ed me those encouraging sms. that was when my heart was touched. Im getting tired, really exhausted. im not sure if i can walk on with such a depressed and heavy spirit.

I need a drink soon.

2008-10-27T12:03:00.002+08:00

John 14:27
27Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you… Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

hmm.. this was in daily devotional a few days back. let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. I was attending itecg last week and somehow i felt that im being forced to move on. Yes, i thought i was ready to move on. but the actual fact was im not ready at all. Getting into a new cg is like getting everything started all over again. make new friends, adapt into the new kind of environment that i'll be in. True adulthood.

I've joined them for service for the very first time yesterday. i felt so out of place, maybe it just takes time. Daddy God, im gonna put my faith in you that whatever the outcome is, it's just gonna be GOOD in your name.

on sat, when pastor ben was preaching.. the word "bond" came and stirred my mind. everytime when there's a BOND, it bound to have a BONDAGE. Which is what im feeling right now. there's a trap unseen, but you know there's one. the feeling is horrible cos it felt like as thou you're trapped.

But i guess, the holy spirit revealed somethings to me. If it's a bondage, Jesus Christ has bored it all. it may seem like a bondage in papers(black & white), but He'll always be with me although i've made mistakes. HE'LL ALWAYS SEE IT THROUGH, BECAUSE HE'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME AND HE LOVES ME SO MUCH!

the phrase, "bondage to fear" just came into my mind. when i was typing "fear" i mistype "f" as "d". i had a new revelation. HE DOES'NT WANT US TO FEAR HIM BECAUSE WE'RE SO DEAR TO HIM.

2008-10-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

Im getting SO TIRED.

SO PHYSICALLY TIRED. negative thoughts has been running across our minds i guess. I thought i was the only one that felt so tired. Well, i guess.. its time to depend on the Lord. I've been thinking back on how i portrayed myself during work. I tend to be too high and maybe that's why im depleted so quickly. Deep under, im such a quiet person.

Sales is just a figure of numbers. And yet, so much important than any other stuffs. Stress is always about the figures if you've broke your ZERO or is it increasing? Lord, you said im your witness of your greatness. You've did it last month, where's this month's?

I have no idea why, but the lyrics of "Still" came into my mind. Maybe this is what he is speaking to me. im like in the midst of a storm. Maybe i shall learn from peter to look at Jesus and have the confident to walk on waters. or maybe soar over the storms when i see Jesus.

when the ocean rise and thunder roar,
i will soar with you above the storm,
father you are king over the flood,
i will be still and know you are God.

2008-10-18T22:25:00.003+08:00

currently hooked on EAGLE'S WINGS.

Eagles Wings Lyrics

Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Here I am waiting
Abide in me I pray
Here I am longing
For You
Hide me in Your love
Bring me to my knees
May I know Jesus
More and more

Come live in me
All my life
Take over
Come breathe in me
I will rise
On eagle's wings

Cos im able to play it on guitar!! ((: i haven't been updating much. This month was really bad. Sales was HORRIBLE!! im still STUCK at ZERO! DADDY, where are your promises? I just wish that the lyrics can stay in my heart and speak to me.

i know you're gonna uplift me no matter what happens. (: met ex-cg for dinner today. Joseph was thinking of a christian name for one of the sister. I was suggesting Hannah. I dint know Hannah's story in the bible until he flipped it and explained.

currently having another eye-candy. *winks

2008-10-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

Attend my first YSWA service today. Indeed, the holy spirit has been speaking all these while but i dint get a affirmation until i heard the word preached today. FAITHFULNESS. In order to see fruitfulness in life, there has to be faithfulness involved.

At this one point of time, i really felt like breaking the bond and seek the Lord. But, the holy spirit kept dropping the word faithfulness into my heart. After today's service i understood this. In order to see God manifest in my life in this profession, FIRSTLY.. i have to be FAITHFUL in this company in order to see his hands doing mighty wonders.

The path of the righteous shall shine brighter and brighter.

I hope what i've shared about Dreams during last night's CG God will fulfill it and even more abundantly. And some personal stuffs that i dint share and i've been seeking for, I know you will work forth for my good. The best shall come! (:

2008-10-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

My very last CG with ITECG.

although only a handful turned up, it was really anointed. I was a little disappointed of the bonding of the whole CG. until today, 7 months has passed. Touch your heart and answer, did you really consider yourself as apart of ITECG?

Today's message was short and simple. Everyone's heart was open to receive. Although it is my last CG with them, i don't know why im feeling this way. I wanna see them BUILD UP each other like today. Joseph did a very good job today. (: or rather, the leading of the holy spirit that lead us to the holy of hollies.

Joseph shared about this. when you closed your eyes, all you have is only Trust/Fear. When the devil put voices into your mind he creates Fear. But Daddy is all along behind you READY to catch you any moment you fall. When you finally are willing to trust God and "fall", you're actually leaning against him because he's so near! when you're leaning on him, it's a picture of REST. When you have God as your support, who can be against you?? AMEN?

I really wish to see this bunch of people shine gloriously and glorify Jesus' work. Faithful people. Joseph said it's time to let me go, Daddy will get me back to serve when the time is right. YSWA, here i come. receive me!

2008-10-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

CASTING CROWNS- WHO AM I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

2008-09-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

i pray that Daddy God's Goodness and favor will fall on all September babies! That includes me. (: Had been a busy and tiring week running from Lionel's chalet to waterloo street, back and forth again. Average i think everyone had almost 8 hours of sleep added up together.

Anyway, i was able to rush down for arrow yesterday and i think it was really awesome! I've never felt so full of the spirit for such a long time! I always wondered how is it being touched by the holy spirit. Why do they fall and stuffs, i've personally experienced it yesterday. It was as if, there was a prompting saying "REST".

Lord, im just gonna trust your finished work at the cross. You shall handle my problem lord. Whatever it happens, im just gonna believe that you made it GOOD for me for christ's sake. A princess does not need to beg but SPEAK. (: And all shall be done for her because she inherit all things ans authority of her Daddy God.

less than 2 hours to my 22nd birthday, daddy.. i pray that you multiply my days with favor, grace and long life, satisfy my lips with anointed words that can change lives and strengthen me to do things impossible because all things are possible through you.

Daddy God, it doesnt matter if anyone is gonna remember my natural birthday or present me with gifts. For i know your GIFTS surpasses all the natural and it would be more than i could ever imagine! Daddy, im gonna ask BOLDLY for prosperity, wisdom, health and KNOWING OF YOUR LOVE EVERYDAY.

AMEN.

2008-09-17T21:48:00.004+08:00

I went over thomson to workout today, but the outcome was in vain cos i ate 3 OILY PRATAS after that. Nvm, shall not put all my trust in exercise but in the word of God. (: If i need to exercise, it shall be because it is beneficial and i enjoy it but not to a extend that i put my trust in it.

Boss put up a memo, i think they're rather pleased with the sales and will be expecting more from me. Daddy, i know if it is by my effort these are all bound to FAIL. It is your GRACE that sustain me throughout this journey. Not only this month, But FOREVER in my life! Im undeserving and yet you blessed me so richly. Oh Lord, all glory goes to Jesus! Im not gonna boast on my sales, BUT YOUR LOVE FOR ME THAT HAS EXCEEDED.

I really hope people really get encourage by this testimony. IT IS NOT BY ME THAT IT WORKED, BUT BY THE ALMIGHTY LORD.

2008-09-16T22:16:00.004+08:00

Daddy God i thank you for being faithful to your word. I thank you exceeding of what i've expect of you. Daddy, on my multiply i mentioned that what is 1k to you when u have provided the 6k? Im really grateful of what you have done Daddy God! now it's just another $200 to go. Daddy God, I CHALLENGE YOU TO PROVIDE ANOTHER 2K INSTEAD OF JUST $200!

I know you cant break your promise. (:
And nothing is impossible for you.

It shall be EASY in JESUS' name i PROCLAIM!

Show me what you've got for me Daddy God!!

2008-09-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

I saw what i was 3 years ago.

Went back SSC to visit uncle steve. A statement uncle steve made left a deep impression for me. He said when he sees me now it reminds him of what he just started off in this industry. I took it as a word or encouragement. I look up to him because of his knowledge in this field of industry.

And im GLAD Daddy God placed me there before to exprience not everyone has exprience before. And in this way, i actually had a advantage over other trainers. I realised that, those that he trained were having fun although the road of recovery is a hard and rocky road. it's full of emotion because you'll reflect back and think of what you used to be able to do and now you're not able to perform some daily actions that you're so used to.Had a short conversation with nic, another trainer. He enlighten me alittle, he said. In everyday you live, do you wanna live in joy or anger? It is how you look at things and lighten it up.

Uncle steve actually told me my jobscope. what am i suppose to do. Yes, i was told to walk around and talk to them but i never really knew what's the reason behind it. Now i do, all thanks to uncle steve. (: The way he protray himself and speak, so much confident and knowledge.

I really thank Daddy God. If it wasnt about that ACL tear, i wouldnt have met such wonderful people. People who spoke life and taught me life. Although they might never know how much they have affected me, i truely thank them.

A picture of them doing ABs. that was what i once did as well. It was tiring, but we endured it through.

That was what sportsmenship all about. that's the place where we met people from other sports as well. (: Rehab days were the days that i had strong body and mind. Where i learnt, MIND OVER BODY, WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER. Both statement from nic and uncle steve.

2008-09-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

actually i wanted to write everything that has happened recently, but think of it. i shouldnt confess the bad stuffs that a is happening. I shall believe in the finished work that everything has been paid forth. The crown of thorns he wore, for the exchange for my stress.

joseph challenged me to listen to a sermon in every 2 days. I know he meant good. (: because of my absence in church, my faith is actually being depressed. faith comes by hearing, all i could do now is to listen and read.

2008-09-03T00:17:00.004+08:00

word of wisdom:

The battle is his.
What shall be shaken will fall,
Let the truth stand itself.

2008-09-02T00:27:00.003+08:00

OUT FOR SUPPER AGAIN..

UPDATE AGAIN SOME OTHER TIME. (:

21 DAYS TO MY 22TH.. :D BATAM ON THE 22TH ANYONE????

2008-08-31T23:18:00.002+08:00

It always felt GOOD to be back at his presence.

It has been since a long long time i last attended service with my CG. I sms-ed the girls last night asking them if they would join us for 4th, only 2 replied. i was trying to do what im suppose to do as a befriender. well, only a handful turned up from my CG.

Saw coach B while walking over to the queue, he had a word with me. And i thought it was gonna be serious, cos the prev time was a counselling session with him. HAHA. :P I was glad that he understood my situation. He knew about the contract i signed, the best part was.. asking me to trust God for the time with him and do not feel condemn or guilty if i couldnt attend church but keep feeding on his word. That's what im really going through man.

Ohh, what really touched me was RUTH. What a nice girl.. she makes me feels at home even though we're from different CG. that's the difference between the world and the kingdom of God.

After speaking to Long-ge, i think i should really make time and progress to YSWA. I feel really undernourished and dry. TIME TO GET BACK INTO HIS WORD AND FEED ON IT. SEE WHATS THE WORD FOR THIS SEASON.

2008-08-24T23:43:00.004+08:00

My 3rd time watching Army daze. :D its still the best local production ever!! I still remember the first time i watched it was YEARS ago. Like when i was 10 or 11 years old? Argh.. mentioning about Age, why is it so sensitive? ROARS

Oh well anyways, i've got to enjoy watching Army daze in my ROOM!! YES!! (: TV back in service for precious Ivy. Finally bought a replacement remote control which cost $9.50.

Ivy LOVES staying in her room now. (:

I was browsing through my files and came through a sad ringtone. "没有你的每一天" i think it's a chinese version of a korean song titled "Because I'm a Girl".

没有你的每一天 (徐婕兒)
回家的路總是很遠話少得很可憐
一個人的晚餐都是孤單的滋味
看見身邊重复上演屬於我們的畫面
選擇逃避的眼怎麼還是會流淚

愛著你的每一天你就是我的世界
那時候還以為我就愛這一遍
没有你的每一天快樂離我好遙遠
心已隨你走了還能用什麼感覺

我捨不得睜開眼睛害怕身邊没有你
也許在夢境裡是我們最近的距離
想念你温熱的手心冷風裡把我握緊
當冬天又來臨這温度該怎麼延續

謝謝你曾經愛過我給我最美的經過
但生命最愛被剝奪未來的路該怎麼走

English version
Everyday Without You (Jill Xu)
The road home is always far, it's a pity words are few
In a single-person dinner, the flavor is only loneliness
At my side, I see the movie repeating, it belongs to our frame
Why do eyes that choose to avoid still cry tears?

Loving you everyday, you are my world
At that time, I still thought I would only love this once
Everyday without you, happiness is so far away from me
My heart has already left with you, what can I still use to feel?

I can't bear to open my eyes, afraid that you're not by my side
Perhaps in dreams, the distance between us is the closest
I miss your warm palms, I'm embraced by a cold wind
When winter comes again, how will this temperature continue?

Thank you for having loved me, giving me a most beautiful experience*
But life loves to be deprived, how should I walk these future roads?

2008-08-23T00:58:00.002+08:00

Arrhhh.. PRIASE GOD. Misunderstanding CLEARED. (: I've heard what i wanted to hear. EHBA EHBA EHBA~

BEC WAS ~~KILLER~~/CHICKENFEET. dint expect Vivienne to be one of the invigilators. The moment i went in i was like.. "HEY.. HI VIVIENNE!" the other course mates was like.. "SHHHHhhhHHHHh.." HAHAHA. i guess i disturbed them. :P she was like.. hey, i was just talking about you with somebody. HOR!! CHINGLING! SHE MENTIONED YOUR NAME! HAHAA..

Oh, my OH SO BELOVED colleague went for course and im so lonely during work. BLEAH. Luckily i had some of the regulars, PT and supervisor to entertain me. Ha.. I just snapped a picture today. This is what we do when we are bored.. even Sharpening Pencil could entertain her.

The Tangled Unbroken Chain

Enjoying sharpening

I saw my Ex-cartel colleague Weichen on the train, he was sleeping so i snap his picture and MMS it over to him to show that i saw him on the train. MUAHAHA.. Poor boy, so tired.

Sophia at 14 months old! she could manage to play the playground on her own!! she even recites "UP" every step she took. SO CUTE!

not to forget.. my CRAZY BUT LOVEABLE YET IRRITATING DOG.. It applies to certain people only. HAHAHAA..

2008-08-21T22:43:00.006+08:00

Daddy, i thank you for EVERY MISSING the mark, you will PROVIDE ANOTHER 5 BULLSEYE!

I BELIEVE IT SHALL COME TO PASS BECAUSE YOUR GOODNESS SURPASSES ME.

GRACE GRACE!!

2008-08-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

i think after relasing this picture, most prob those whom i did not mention to i've quited cartel and ingram micro. Yeah.. this is my new job. Still dont get it? too bad. (:

2008-08-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

HEADLINES TO REPORT.

1. WORK ISSUE AGAIN
2. ATTENDED MANDRAIN SERVICE
3. EX-TPA CGL CONTACTED ME

ARGH.. Some issues raised about again. I dont get it why is it til further notice? I just dont get it and im expecting a explaination. is it because of my performance? tell me straight at my face then.

attended mandrian service with both my collegues. 1st time attending mandrian service after so so long. although i couldnt understand the terms but could roughly estimate what he was preaching. Needed time to translate in my mind. haa.

My first friend(EX TPA CGL) in arrow CALLED me! so suprised please! (: we realised that we're facing the same problem. Yes, we're trusting daddy for the same thing, trusting for time to get back into his kingdom. Sometimes this trust fades off till its so shallow and you couldnt believe in it.

theres where my fav verse comes in. HEBREW 11:1 - the explaination of FAITH FAITH.. a substance that you cant see but knowing(assureance) it will come to pass. As the Lord said, he will prepare a feast right infront of my enemies. WHY? STRESSFREE BATTLE. BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN DEFEATED BY THE BLOOD OF JESUS! DECLARE it! Look into the ROOT OF LOVE-JESUS. he LOVEd me so much that he actually became weak, poor, ugly on the cross so that i can have his strength, richess and beauty of him. The crown on his head sheading blood is an exchange as well, "blood sweatless life"(Stop trying to WORK it out your way, STOP AND LISTEN.. it's by his GRACE).

We always have the wrong impression of God being harsh on his people, punishing them and some believe in karma aka retribution. RUBBISH, my saviour is a loving, caring and passionate GOD. HE NEVER PULLS ME DOWN, BUT BRINGS ME UP. Im high above all principlity because of the redemption of christ. Therefore im GREATLY BLESSED, HIGHLY FAVORED AND DEEPLY LOVED by Him.

2008-08-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

RAH.. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.

I just have to keep reminding myself that im the beloved child of His. And im ALWAYS FIGHTING FROM VICTORIOUS GROUND. Because Jesus had paid the price for me.

2008-08-11T23:07:00.004+08:00

Knowing what you are, how you stand plays a big part in your appearance. it actually shows how strong, solid and confident you are. and not to mention, your trustworthy-ness. I've change my msn nick from Daddy's little girl to DADDY's PRECIOUS Ivy. It just reflects how precious i am to Him. ((:

Okay, pictionary time! I do the showing you do the captions kay?

2008-08-08T02:26:00.003+08:00

WHOAOHOOOO!!! CREDITS TO DADDY GOD!

Life is like a SEE-SAW man.. and im sure i dont want to be a SEE and SAW christian. That's why knowing the ROOT of love is important. I want to stand still and FIRM in Daddy's Love. Only in him can i find comfort.

Anway, life hasnt been easy for me. Ups and Downs, Excited and dissapointment, High and Low.. I was talking to Joseph(CGL) the other day that i think i've made the wrong choice. The more i walk, the more lost i am. The more i insist things to be, the more it goes headwire.

I was telling him about the problems that surfaced in work. And i regreted that i couldnt spend time to sit down(REST) with Daddy God. well, he told me that sometimes Daddy speaks through leaders and i dint listen to him.

Ahhh.. you know how it feels like? just like someone smacked you on the face and say see.. dont listen la? But he brought the point across that Daddy knows we learn better through HARD KNOCKS. yah.. im KNOCKING HARD RIGHT INTO IT. But, Daddy never gives up, he will bring me through out of it and he will STILL BLESS ME ABUNDENTLY! AMEN? SHOUT AMEN!!

I was worried about certain stuffs. Like the target.. Been trusting Daddy to crack the BIG ZEROOOO. But it dint seem coming. i dont even know how to approach people, cant even speak good english, stutter at every sentence, inconfident.. I felt so tiny.

PRAISE DADDY GOD! THE ZERO WAS BROKEN TODAY!!! ((: HE'S FAITHFUL! I BELIEVE MORE WILL COME.

Joseph asked me to meditate on Luke 8. i still couldnt figure it out what is it thats try to tell me about. DADDY, I PRAY FOR WISDOM.. YOUR WISDOM.. and your CHARIS! CHARISMA.

2008-08-04T23:21:00.001+08:00

Secondhand Serenade » Fall For You Lyrics

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

2008-08-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

Gospel Revolution (Youth Worship Album) <- im so gonna get you!!

Had combine youth concert today. It was super duperly AWESOME!! I was late and a little lost looking for my seat. It was like a mini "The Zone". Anyway, for those who doesnt know the zone, it was a christian concert. We had Hillsongs Australia here for that concert early this year. it was HOT and Anointing.

But for our combine concert, we sang all of NCC creations. NICEE!! It really take God to wrote those songs man. There was a holy presence that i do not know how to describe in words.. It's like an embrace of the holy spirit. Being loved by God, Knowing how much you meant to Him.. Which cost his son's life to exchange for mine. That blood he shed on the cross, that redeems me from every curse, every negative thoughts and every sickness and diseases.

There was just such a STRONG presence of him. Melting my heart, Changed my mind again and tears just flowed down uncontrollably. knowing it is by his grace and not by my works. The concert lasted for about 2.5hours. could imagine how many songs we sang.. haha.

whoaaaOOOOOOHHHH.. whoooAAAhhOOOooooHHH.. He'll never forsake me!

2008-07-27T22:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING YEE HUAY AKA EGG WHITE!

Im just so glad that im blessed with a nice supervisor. (: Attended BEC with my colleague yesterday. The course was about BONES & MUSCLE GROUPS. We were both ZOMB-ED by it. ASTOUNDED by the chim-ness of every bones, muscles, terms used. And not forgetting to mention, it was SUPER FREEZINGLY COLD which added up the stress. ha.. At that point of time, my phone vibrated(silent mode).. It was my supervisor showing her concern. Although it wasnt anything big, but i was touched that she remembers i had to attend that course yesterday.

Course continued today, my colleague was on MC today. So i was left alone, but praise be with God. I met 2 other girls i met in another course in that room.(: I enjoyed today's lecture very much. And.. Daddy God i call Forth that cert, that answer, that terms i need to remember in your name. It shall come into my mind in split seconds.

Went to serve even though i dint went for service today. I actually felt like not going cause i was tired. Due to the lack of sleep recently. But there was a prompting just to go and serve and i went. (: Think of it again, It's almost been a year when i first join logistics.

Regarding the serving part. I can honestly tell you im not "HOLY" im not the.. GOD SPOKE TO ME.. ADA ADA ADA.. NO.. i have my own spiritual fight as well. When i first took up this career, it was my passion towards that industry. But my CGL told me not to rush into it as it MAY affect my spiritual walk. Remember what i've share on the prev post? "The dream" At first i thought, God gave me this chance to pursue this dream of mine.. But i compromised the time spent with him. Because of my stubbornness, i landed myself into WORKS. Yes, im trusting in him to get sunday off just to spend time with my ABBA. And I BELIEVE it will come to past.

I battled inside me about Serving or not to serve? Cause i wasnt going for service, so it would be such a hassle just to go back and serve and i dont see a point. In another point of view, i asked myself.. Has God served you? Shouldnt you be grateful and get back from where you started? Serve him because he first served me. Thoughts came in like.. "Aiyahh.. You serve just because you wanna "work" for your merits and blessings lahh.. hoping can bring in sales lahh.." Yes. thats me. But i just remember pastor's massage. follow that soft prompting in your heart!

I served, and i felt wonderful.. never felt so much more joy than today this week. So light and burden free. As azhar closed with the prayer, i felt the load off my shoulder. PEACE.. SHALOM. (: I've got back this revelation. AMEN!

2008-07-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

Argh, i blew it. damn.. I was still asking for favor to close the deal. But, instead of closing it.. it pissed me off instead. Well, all things happens for the good! HAA.. look at the brighter side of life.

fruitful day i would say. (: Worked, ran, movie-ed and P&W-ed. Indeed, my soul is refreshed! "His Goodness will surpass you". Meaning? God's goodness will be there even before you landed yourself into "deepshit", he will bring you out of it. (:

our CGL told us a story.. it goes..

Mary has a Father whom she highly respects. He was a good model father whom even her friends are jealous of. He brings bread home and even brings gifts for her. He is a promising father who never fails to go back home on time. One day, Mary found a old dusty box. She open-ed it and realised it was her father's "secret box". He placed diaries and notes inside. Mary saw this particular note about her father's dream..

1. being single
2. travel around the world
3. be a rock star

Questions..
1. Do you think her father is a happy man now?
2. Do you think having Mary was a choice or God's plan?
3. How many plans God has for you and How many choices you have?
4. Do you think if you had all your dreams come true, will you have true happiness?

My answers..
1. I think he is a happy man now even thou he dint kept his 3 dreams. Because if he could get home on time without fail, he must have loved Mary very much. Moreover he buys her gifts. it shows that he wants to shower her with love.

2. i think it was more of her father's choice? Cause God never forces you to do things you dont want to. Maybe God spoke to him and he met a wonderful women and had Mary.

3. I think, God only had ONE plan for us. Which is to love us and wanting us to succeed in life. Although we have choices from A-Z, he makes it all work out well for his beloved.

4. I've been thinking over this question hard when my CGL asked. It was a difficult question to answer. What are my dreams? i had a hard time figuring out.. Was getting into poly was my dream? Working in a gym? be a personal trainer my dream? If it is.. will i be happy if i eventually get there?? I might... but only for a short period of time. Because all these never satisfy my inner man. Only JESUS can satisfy.

2008-07-24T00:17:00.002+08:00

Im EXCITED about the Great Eastern Run!! Although it still has a long way to go, but i've started training for it! (: I found it such a difficulty staying on the treadmill more than 5mins when i started off. and now, i improved to staying on the treadmill for 30mins running 3.3km. (: great achievement for me. Although i told xiu we shall try to target ourself to finish the 5km within 40mins.. i think it is more than possible to do it. (: maybe can even complete it within 30mins.

Im very much more excited because my company's forming to teams to join the coporate run! HAHA, they tried asking me to join them for 10km coporate run.. crazy lehh.. i'll stick to my 5k no matter what.. WAAHHAHA..

10k.. mayb can try next yr lahh.. not enough time to train leh.

2008-07-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

I Stand In Worship
by Karen Lim - Copyright © 2007, New Creation Church
CCLI #NA

VERSE 1:
In Your hand are the depths of the earth
And the heights of the heavens above
I worship and bow down
Kneel before You, my Lord and Maker

In Your hand is the breath of my soul
In Your love I stand righteous and bold
To honour You my King
Glorify You, my Redeemer

CHORUS:
With open arms I stand in worship
Feel Your love's embrace
In reverence I enthrone You Jesus
Lifter of my head

With gratefulness I stand before You
Faithful loving King
I rest in hope for You are my portion
With thankfulness ... (I sing)

www.freepraiseandworship.org

I've been missing alot on church attendance due to work. I know there isnt any condemnation but i could feel myself distancing away from my brothers and sisters in christ. It's as if im back to the state where i kept slogging my life for cartel for MONEY instead of resting in my Father's house.

I need a fresh revelation from you daddy God. Remind me of your love for me. Remind me that im your beloved. Give me this strong sense that even everything goes wrong, your perfect love never goes wrong. Because your perfect love is on me, i have supernatural FAVOR. a FAVOR with you and with men. Because, you said you're no longer banging on LAW, BUT GRACE.

GRACE = UNEARNED, UNMERITED, UNDESERVING FAVOUR

AMEN!

2008-07-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

BLESSED EVENT! (: everyone's happy over today's result.

Happy over my new watch.

2008-07-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

i felt so much relief after signing the bond. Finally something off my shoulders. It felt exactly the same during the final year period of school life. When so much things was going headwire and nothing was settled.

I made sure i read over and over the contract again. At that moment, i told God.. Daddy, you're gonna take care of this. You're gonna multiply whatever i have including my personality and character. Because As you are SO AM I IN THIS WORLD! I shall Behold your BOLDNESS, your CHARISMA, your LOVE, your RIGHTOUSNESS, your method of dealing with things. Because when you are gentle you are not passive. When you are firm u do not break people's heart.

I was worried about sales. I've never ever done any sales before and.. im not really good at talking. so with that mindset i had eariler on, i ask myself.. Is Jesus a good sales person? HE IS! if he wasnt, nobody would wanna hear him preach and accepted christ! AS HE IS SO AM I IN THIS WORLD! i shall convince them to sign up more packages!

Im just glad i had a burden off my shoulder thats all. (:

2008-07-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

I ENJOYED MEETING AGAIN! (:

Gonna attend a course on this coming sat. Daddy, im not gonna limits ur unlimited-ness(if there's such a word). I hope HA's pay is coming in soon as im really really broke. Ohh.. Im gonna get this baby. (: Investing into a heart rate watch.

Im looking forward to the next meeting again. (:

GREAT EASTEN WOMEN RUN '08 ANYONE??? Got 10% if we sign up before 7th July. Strictly for LADIES only..

I WANT A TONE BODY!!! HAHAHAHA.. oh well, i shall encourage myself to do more cardio. HEE.. SWIMMING TOMORROW!!! (:

2008-06-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

MEETING WAS FUN! (:

I truely enjoyed myself during the shooting and meeting. While we were having lunch at subway, i saw nick(the ex manager of marina square outlet). Indeed, the meeting was.. Like a family gathering. I get to know more of the staffs, although it wasnt as big as i thought.

I got to know that one of the supervisor is as YOUNG as me. (: well, i think in our dept.. my age group is considered one of the youngest. HEE.

Im looking forward to the next meeting on next wed. :D

Daddy God, thank you for blessing me. (:

Btw, one of them commented i got bodybuilder's arm. -.- RAH..

2008-06-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

"may you become a boss of your own" -Ranford Joseph

This was what he told me last night. my respond was, im not sure if i could manage if there's such a day. he said "God never gives you things that you cannot handle". This sentence has been burning in my thought.

Alright, to share a little.. i have a vision of being a supervisor. I dont know when or how, but it was just a vision flashing through. My manager called me up and told me my probation period might be shorten. I never expected it to be so soon. It was my 3rd week and 3rd day at work. So i was quite excited about being confirm as a full time staff.

My supervisor called up and told me to go over to the HQ to meet up with my manager. The moment i met her, she said she has a PROPOSAL for me. WHAT A BIG WORD. PROPOSAL. It was about this 2 years bond. In this 2years, they will send me for courses and stuffs but i have to stay for 2 years. It scared me off when she said that. i mean, of all people.. why me? btw, only 2 were selected for the proposal. I told her to give me 2 days to think about it.

Am i really that blessed?

trying my luck to get into this new industry with no relevant certifications and now they're offering me a 2year bond. Seriously speaking, i like what im doing right now. but im just afraid of taking the wrong step.

i went back to the outlet, seek for suggestions.. So far, 2 has agreed. 2,2,2.. the number of testimony. so i decided to accept it and just like that fire in my heart, that sentence.. "God wont give you anything you cant handle." Maybe this is the beginning of the vision i had days ago.

2008-06-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

Alright, to be truthful.. im jealous.

I thought it wouldnt affect me, but i was wrong? Keeping silent is all i could do. I thought it wasnt my season, so i comfort myself saying "it's okay. It's not my season. Daddy has a reason doing it."

Daddy, reveal your love to me all over again. From beginning to the end. Embrace me and ensure me that all things gonna turn out fine. I have the thought of shutting down the world again. Just me and me. I dont want that to happen daddy.

2008-05-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

i googled and searched for my campers blog and found afew of them. im very glad they missed the camp and had fun during the 4days 3 nights.

Campers:
everything that was done was worth it. that few hours of sleep was worth it for you. Although sometimes, some of the campers were driving me crazy doing things they should not do. And, campers.. they ideas and things done by your class really amazed me!

eg, for the raft.. getting the barrels as support. Shouting at the guys for not helping out. cleaning the table at free will. getting campfire stuffs all ready in the last min.

It really puzzle me how come you people have mood swings. one moment so High, the other moment so low. -.-"

Personally as a camper i've only attended 2 camps. i would say, none of them was fun. But as a instructor i could deliever camp with my mirror with such effects i think its a great acheivement.

Yanru advised me not to carry on with this job, but i think what im doing is what other instructors are doing too. We are not looking for a high pay job. But, this is a job where we could impact youth's life and keep them movtivated and going. Seeing how they bond during the camp made everything worthwhile. (:

And im sure God is moving among them. (; the reason of this success is because of the Lord has made it fun for them. (;

2008-04-24T00:55:00.002+08:00

this post is dedicated to:

Mr Joseph Ong

Thank you for blessing me with the guitar years ago. Now i've volunteered to play for CG with the hand written notes you gave. it was really helpful.

It was a blessing in disguise. ((:

Indeed, my Abba has forseen me to be a great guitarist. *winks im just flowing in his ways and being intoxicated with his Love.

Listen to the sermon loaded into my Ipod today, pastor shared.. Vine -> Grapes -> Wine -> intoxicate. I found that interesting. (:

2008-04-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

Daddy God,

I really have no idea why you have placed me in Joseph intention to appoint me to be ITECG befriender, i know the imperfection in me Lord. I know that interactive skills are not my strength Lord. But when i heard why did he settled down with this decision, i knew it was you Lord who has uplifted me. He said that he has actually been looking for people to be befrienders, but he dint know who to choose from. So he chose those who are faithful to the CG. He also said that the Lord has spoke to him, he doesnt choose those who are perfect. Cause, no one is perfect.

So, it was Amos and me.

Daddy, im gonna trust in you. Because your perfectness will perfect my imperfectness. For its not me that can handle such a job. I will have to look back to you for affirmation. Lord, keep me with you. Lord, grant me your wisdom in people relations. Because you have appointed me to do this task Lord, you’ve got to walk with me hand in hand, side by side. Guide me through your way Lord.

Lord, you know how “well” i play the guitar Lord. It is not by me but by the spirit who worships you on next friday Lord. Let your holy presence anoint the strumming of my guitar Lord. It might be my hand strumming, but i know there is a greater hand holding mine and strum with me.

All these i pray in mighty Jesus’ name,

AMEN!

Beloved Ivy

2008-04-06T11:47:00.002+08:00

basically, i think i looked happier now.

Thats Jo & me. (:

Guess what? She's attached again after that heartbreaking incident.

-.- Everybody turned to me and asked when is my turn.. Stress leh! HAHAA.. I was like, No guys what.. then all point to *Josiah.. -.- Piang ehh.. Anyway, it was really nice chilling out with them last night.

2008-03-25T11:12:00.002+08:00

G D/F#
My Chains are gone, I’ve been set free
G/B D/A
My God my Savior has ransomed me
D/F# G D/F#
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Em7 A7 D
Unending love, Amazing Grace

2008-03-23T10:54:00.006+08:00

i was listening to my sister's Ipod and this song was playing. i was laughing when i heard the lyrics.

N Sync - God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You Lyrics

Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)

In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must have spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more time
on you...ohhh

HAHA, if God had spent different amount of time on everybody, which means He Shed different amount of blood for everybody too? NOPE, he shed 100% for everyone!

i like the chorus thou, it speaks of the Love Daddy God have for me except the "God must have spent a little more time on you". (:

2008-03-14T11:47:00.004+08:00

I realized life is complicated.

This is the worldly life, so much "WANTS" and "NEEDS". So, have you ever think of what are the WANTS and NEEDS in your life? Your needs might be just a WANT more than a NEED. So, which one should we go after? In such a fast pace society, everyone is competing.

See, even such a simple Question is cracking my brain.

When people seems to go after simple living and hide from the fast pace world, others say your're KUKU. outdated. see, so complicated.

2008-03-13T11:20:00.003+08:00

Jesus all worth is found in you
Lord, i reign in this life
cause you have bought me
with the highest price

in your righteousness lord
i will stand
to shout your praise
lord i shout your praise..

so i
i believe
and i
i put my faith in you

(: i know this blog seems very lifeless now. i just wish to share somethings here which i found it very good, encouraging and booster of faith. Pastor Joshua shared this last Sunday.

A teacher asked a question to a class of students, "is there darkness on earth?" A student replied, "no, there's no Darkness on earth because darkness is just a absent of light in a room. you can measure light but not darkness." And he said, "when there is light it covers darkness with light.

amazingly, guess who said that? it was by Albert Einstein. the story wasnt in full cos i've forgot some of the details.

"When the solution is simple, God is answering."
-Albert Einstein

it applies into our life too. when you think your life is in darkness, SWITCH ON THE LIGHT! haha! it may be dark for a moment but it will eventually shine! Because God is SMILING at you from heaven! He's shinning at you! when He shines, how would there be darkness?

2008-03-03T12:35:00.001+08:00

What IVY SOH Means

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.

You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.

Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-02-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

arggh, alright to those who really know me. i might look tough at the external but im very fragile inside. im actually a very inwardly character person. just like, i wanted to receive christ, but i never dared to raise up my hand to go to the front.

this customer came with coral sec's uniform, the first thing that came to my mind was a image of me in that uniform. the very one thing i wanted to ask her was, how was joey. heart pumped very quickly but i had no courage to ask.

i knew if i do not open my mouth and ask i'll not know how is she at all. i took all my courage and have the word spoken, i was trembling all over. although, she said she don't know but, at least she still in school. i believe Daddy God will bless her richly.

i hope i'll see her in church and have a cup of coffee together some day.

2008-02-22T11:12:00.005+08:00

BACK FROM SPACE! *Vrrom*
(i was told that i should put this as my title.)

alright, it really touches my heart that many loyal reader still made an effort to type out this long whinny address or made an effort to click it to see if there's any updates available. your efforts shall not disappoint you because im updating now!

graduation day was GREAT. i think almost everyone has changed in a way or two. most of them became much more good looking and mature. it wasn't a sad event i'll say, we were more like celebrating because we've made it through this course in two years. with the friendships bonded despite of race or religion. thats real friendship man!

its a pity that not all attended the ceremony. but still, we should treasure what we have and make the best out of it. we're gonna have another GATHERING GUYS!BBQ on 5th march at Desmond's place. Please take note guys, try to make time for it. as it will be the last time we'll have such event as a class before we go separate ways.

you know, i've never love school as much as i loved this class. FU0601K, everyone of you are the hero in my life, because you made me love school. i really appreciate this friendship we've bond.

2008-01-24T10:06:00.000+08:00

coward and irresponsible. these are the words that really reflects him.

met darling girlfriend to chill out yesterday, we stopped at the singpore river side opposite fullerton hotel. the same spot where joseph and i once shared memories. i told her about our past. indeed the memories were still very fresh. as thou i've unlocked them from my heart. its just a small corner which i hid secrets.

indeed, if you have saw it in another person's point of view it would have been very sweet. i found it stupid and silly crying after the break up. which at a point of time affected my studies. and i regreted it very very much. i mean, i believe Daddy must have sent him into my life for some reason.and im trying to figure out why. and why did he leave in such a way?

as i was on my way to meet lionel, i realised.. i needed someone to share my sadness and joy. it might seems like im seeking for love. but im waiting for that somebody Daddy has promised me. Daddy made adam and eve. i thought over it.. every men or women needs a partner. Daddy dint create man or woman alone. he wants companionship for me.

on my way back home, i messaged joseph and asked if he's asleep yet. what a fast reply! he wasnt asleep yet. so i carried on with my 2nd text saying, "i think the cool of period is over, can you honestly tell me why you left that time?" HAA.. there wasnt any reply at all!

i mean, my side of story was.. the people was with me during this period and i had a hard time crying to my beloved pooh bolster and acting cool like nothing has happened before. acting strong like i always do and innerly, im really not. i just wanna be fair to you and hear your side of story and maybe i HOPE i've misunderstood you.

these i've confirm, he's really a real coward. was it really that difficult to let the truth to be told? moreover, we're not speaking anymore and we're not even seeing each other.

MR JOSEPH ONG SHEN CAI, I AM TRULY DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. AND YOU HAVE PROVE ME RIGHT.

thanks anyway. i've seen your true colours.

and im really sick of acting strong. although i was trained to shed blood but not tears, im really sick of it. i need someone to rely on. i just hope that there's someone to pick me up for work, dinner together and of cause laughters.

girlfriend said i've change, i've became more mature. i hope i'll grow more of inner beauty, more gracious and more forgiving.

i've watched SPOP that day and i took part on this personality test too. it was about entering a forest, what animal would you see? as you walk deeper into the forest which animal did you see again? and as you leave, you turned back and see.. which animal did you see again?

1. lion <- this reflect on what you think you are.
2. lamb <- people sees you as this animal.
3. eagle <- this is really what you are.

it calms my heart when i have Daddy's love and im soring like a eagle. nothing can pull me down and it doesnt take great effort to flap my wings. cause i just need to open up my wings and glide thru the horizon. this is indeed the Christian's life Daddy lay down for me.

2007-11-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

maybe its time,

to leave blogspot? although, i couldnt bare to leave it. for its the reminder of all events that happened. Every new person i met, every happy or sad incident.. i dont find the point blogging anymore if i couldnt shoot whats really on my mind.

Goodbye my love,
little-black.blogspot.com!

2007-11-29T16:11:00.000+08:00

Im so gonna BITCH about my SLIPPERS!!! ARGH.. there goes my 60 dollars slipper. or rather 30 dollars? cos of side of the strip is detached! IT JUS SNAPPED OFF LIKE THIS!!! and i love this slipper soo much!! I SWEAR IM GONNA BUY ANOTHER ONE!! SAME DESIGN!! or maybe anyone thinking of getting me a christmas gift?? a size 3 NUM slipper would be perfect!!! XD haa..

Alright, anyone who knows me in person will know im not a very LADYLIKE person. YES.. soo, for this interview. i tried to put on my best attire with HEELS! YES!!! u DID SEE THE WORD "HEELS". -.- AND it was KILLING MY FEET! -.- i realise that one who was working there was my direct senoir from FTP! omg.. wad a small world.

Well, it was quite saddening after the presentation on tuesday. we were the first group to present. i was trembling as i spoke. i was really really nervous. but i guess overall we did quite well. (:

Mas was the sweetest girl in class again..

she was giving out our last goody bag for the very last time. im gonna keep her in my heart man!

Ohh, remember that teacher who said i was cheating and wanted to fail me? AHHH HUUHHH!!!! well, we're quite okay already lahh. (: shes actually quite a nice person.

a overlook at the class, the joker of our class laying on the floor. guess he's gonna miss the floor we step in everyday. HAAA... well, i really love this class very much!!

2007-11-27T12:25:00.000+08:00

last day of school. today seems VERY QUIET. most of the groups has gone to do their last min printings and whatever.. i tried calling joey, but i seem to lost contact with her. ): she has changed her numbers.. including her residential number. haii. i really like her to witness the baptism. cos she was the one who brought me back to church. now i've grown into a better person partly because of her.

i remembered how rebellious i was. i even sent her a email thru intranet in school in the past bitching about her. Yet, she was the only one who was willing to make me stay in the staffroom and made me do my maths questions everyday without fail. draw me back to church even though i wasnt in that school anymore. i really wanna thank her. u have left a very big impression in my life. if ever one day, i'll be a coach or a teacher. i'll always have you in mind on how you showed care and concern for students.

i pray that serene heals. (:

alot of amazing testimonials from Christians.. on how stuffs been done thru believing. when will i receive my miracle?

remove that mountian lord.

2007-11-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

well, its the unoffical LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW. Tomorrow will be the BIG DAY. cos we're gonna present our work, speech and everything. i wonder if i'll tear tomorrow. i seriously think that this is one of the BEST CLASS i ever wished for.

PROJECT SUPERVISOR! ((:

we wanted her picture but she refused.. so therefore we took the hard way out. we kept taking shots of her.. HAHAAA.. until agree if we took together. im gonna crop her face out later thou.. HEEEE XD

THANK YOU KAR!!! I LOVE IT VERY VERY VERY MUCH!! (: its always not too late to recieve a birthday present! (:

I AM SOO SOOO EXCITED! ((:

im getting baptize on this coming sunday! (: which is one of my decision i made the moment i turned 21. i wonder how will it be like? im soo happy and i cant wait for it to come. ((: although i know when i believed christ i've already got christ in me. but this a declaration. that everyone and myself will know. (: i shall not be confuse over. "am i really a chirstian?". HEE.. It will be held at YMCA on this coming sunday (2nd dec). call me if u wanna witness it.

Interview's on wed. Spent almost a HUNDRED on decent pants and shoes yesterday. just for a interview. i better pray i get thru the interview and HAVE the job!! finished my pay within a week! OMG.. how cool is it? -.-

2007-11-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

hello.
afraid that girlfriend's blog is soon gnna be dead.
i shall be nice and update for her(:

this blackie here is soon gonna
get real goddamn worn out.
seeing her chionging projects,
worrying for her friends,
everytime gym gym gym,
i am so worried for her not getting
enough sleep/rest/break/whatever.

okay digessing.
so, Ivy went to suntec to accompany her oh-love-love gf,
Gera, to purchase the camera Gera eyed on.
afterwhich, she accompanied her
to KFC for her dinner as she had hers alrdy.
and thruout the dinner,
Ivy keep talking about her EYECANDY.
(random, haha)

esplanade-d after dinner.
intended to jus sit and relax.
but saw this live performance there.
so Ivy and Gera decided to watch.
wait and wait, took some photos,
finally the performance started.
awesome, the singer is a joker too.
i'll let ivy to do the commenting
next time when she blogs alrite(:

and when the performance ended,
serene, another lovelove girlfriend came.
THREESOME DATE. short yet sweet.
chatted about Serene new job and blahblah.
at ard 10 plus 11, we went home.

gonna for night cycling on the 30th.
pray hard nothing crop up.
i lovee threesome date :D :D :D :D

BYE!

2007-11-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

PPHEWWWW~!!! what a relief.. WE'VE COMPLETED OUR PROJECT!!

COME'ON EVERYONE!!!
GIVE US SOME CLAPS OR CHEERS!! ((:

special thanks to everyone who supported me this period of time in a way or another. XD i really appreciate it very much.

im going for a interview FOR DATA ENTRY tml.. which i totally have no idea what is it about. HAA.. trying to exprience with new job. (:

I WANNA NIGHT CYCLE BADLY!!

2007-11-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

Xmas deco at orchard.

it was last min drinking session with mary again. we went hardrock cafe, but it was closing so we decided to drop by orchard hotel.BUT, it was in vain again. took a cab down to fullerton hotel. AGAIN.. it was in vain. so we ended up at ESKIBAR again. -.-

it was the BEER game again. i lost most of it. so, therefore i drank most of it. -.- Burped and puke alittle. RAHH..

Passed by cartel and i was playing with Rach's glasses. ((: Oh, BTW.. im JOBLESS now. offically jobless. HEE.. just quited afew days back.

JESS's birthday celebration at studio6. the place where she works now. Alot of her friends turned up.. Only me and SM was her "cartel friend". Yea.. thats how saddening. ): cos BL was doing night shift and couldnt be there with us.

Ms EGG came after sometime later. by then, jess was totally drunk! HAA..

FAMILY TIME!! HEEE.. thats how my cousins used to piggy backed me too! (:

2007-11-16T15:50:00.001+08:00

i feel sad out of a sudden. actually many emotions were attacking me. -.- shocking, angry, sad? Mas told me that our project will be DUE on NEXT FRI! which was supposingly to be like 2 more weeks? why did they inform us so late??!! RAH..

SAD.. another week or so with this class. i was looking at the class photo before i slept yesterday. im sure i'll miss this class more than any when i guaduate. although, we broke into smaller clicks than before. the relationship was much closer too. we do share our hearts out among some of them.

Shouldnt friends be this way? i really wonder how would our road turn out to be. will we have the chance to celebrate each other's birthday like they've done for me every year?

FU0601K, Ivy HEARTS YOU!

2007-11-16T10:53:00.000+08:00

my CURRENT ALL TIME FAVOURITE!!!

WAIT FOR YOU - ELLOIT YAMIN

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

Baby sophia

Baby Hiroshi Is OFFICALLY 2 yr old this sunday!! ((:

my project supervisor likes this shot thou. XD

There're some errors.. some part we're not happy with. i think we might have to shoot another time. -.-

2007-11-15T16:53:00.000+08:00

OMG.. i feel so SHAG!! i seldom feel shag this early. -.- the project was eating up my CELLS. I SWEAR. Weather wasnt favorable.. it began raining not after long we reached. -.- which was a BAD BAD START. project supervisor texted and ask us how was it going. it was really sweet for her to show a little concern for us. (:

The SUN was BACK and we contiuned shooting. ((: Although the ants were irritating, overall it was still quite alright. i'll like to thank everyone who has contributed to this project in a way or another. the THANK YOU LIST GOES..

XIU,
FJ,
SISTA,
KAR KAR,
MS EGG,
Mas's cousins.

Thank you guys soo much!

Congrats on getting a job MS EGG! I demand for a treat!! HAA.. although i owe you one for this too. HEE. XD

I NEEDA SEARCH FOR FULL TIME JOB TOOO!!! -.-!! no more cartel for this few months. im so sick of it.

2007-11-13T02:56:00.000+08:00

OMG.. i think im soo gonna fail my Flash test later. -.- Its so so confussing about codes and even more rubbish to remember. And im still not asleep yet. im out with mary at MACs.. suppose to do 3D and revise on Flash, but.. i gave up.. i feel so UNEASY!!! my back and neck are aching badly!! i need a massage badly!! ):

Well, i needa THANK ku ku for her help. THANK YOU SOO MUCH!! I OWE YOU ONE. And im gonna meet the EGGIES without the shell for dinner tml. :D it makes me feel so HIGH! lol. ARGH, this little girl from work bite me yesterday. .. all i've got now is a freaking big patch of blue black. IT HURTS!! BOO BOO..

2007-11-12T10:20:00.000+08:00

ESKIBAR_______________

the eski bar entrance. (:

View of mary from the outside. doesnt it look cool?? or rather.. FREEZING?HAA

His eskiblue drink. it was pretty nice. i stole abit of it. HAA. XD

FREEZING CHILLED BEER & TORTURING GAME!! HAAAA DRINK MARY!!!

His drink came, and i was wondering.. where was mine.. XD

MAGARITA!!! I LOVE IT!! ((:

2007-11-09T09:10:00.000+08:00

ESKIBAR was extremely COLD! haa. shall load the pics really soon. (: supposed to do open close on sat. but i tua-ed the night shift. i think kelvin was angry. HAAA.. do i look like i care? i could treat it as nothing happened. and resume work on sat. HEE. XD

It was finally meet the secondary school mates on thurs. its been years i recall. haa. i think they dint change much. still so much like secondary school days. well, i still miss DA BAO. we went K-boxed and headed home.

Received a unexpected call. rushed down. it got me so worried. -.- hmmm... BOO BOOO.. im feeling so sad!! HAHAA.. somebody comfort me!! HAI.. will i always be this way? silently.. be there for you?

2007-11-06T12:38:00.000+08:00

BOO BOO!!! at least today i felt much more effective than normal school days! haha. cos i brought xinni's laptop to school. connect it to the eternetcable and here i am!! heee.. much faster too!

im like so broke!!! boooo havent felt like this for ages!! i shall find a full time job upon guaduation!! AHHH!!! 1 more week to 3D's dateline.. few more weeks to fyp's dateline. -.-! although im the team leader.. it feels like as thou i havent been doing anything yet. HAHA!! i think my time to get stress is drawing near. im in charge of powerpoint slides.. which i have so little idea on how to do.. havent touched on that for a long time.

Guardian angel? more than willing to. ((:

2007-11-05T19:22:00.000+08:00

hopefully, we'll meet our dateline. and i strongly believe God will guide us thru this. i believe and therefore i spoke. i know sometimes its difficult to believe.. but, dont all father wants the best for their children? With this im sure HE LOVES ME! he'll do the best for me. Maintain at your REST ivy!!

I AM THE RIGHTOUSNESS OF GOD IN CHRIST!!!

ohh, i met FJ on sat for dinner and we pass by center point. there was a tiny whinny piece of note pasted on the wall which attracted my attention. it was some losers pasting notes on my pastors. YEA.. i think it was damn funny! imagine.. this person, used like 3 colour pen to finish that piece of note. HAND WRITTEN. he even bothered to print out pastor prince's and pastor lawernce's pic. THATS SO FUNNY! i wanted to take a picture of it. BUT FJ DRAGGED ME AWAY.. -.-""

we took a stroll down the houses along orchard. OMG!! they're soo BEAUTIFUL!!! i proclaim in JESUS name i'll earn much that i can afford such houses!!! for me and mama!! IN 20 YRS!!! i'll be 40 by then.. HAAAA.. -.-

i really do hope to get an A for our project. but it still look very simple. OH LORD, HELP! One last day to eggy's O levels.. wish her luck!!

2007-11-02T10:14:00.000+08:00

im soo high!! oohh.. kuku gave me a lighter!! DAMM NICEE!!! and i LOVE IT SOO MUCH!! (: thanks babe!!

went location hunting yesterday. ended up taking tons of pics of ourselves. LOL.. Went gym with konggui. she's really konggui lahh!! even the hawker we wanted to go to was closed. -.- konggui was sweet, we went down to wait for konggui's girlfriend to knock off. meantime, she treated us. YAY!!!

Ohh, i was mistaken as a guy in in the ladies. HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA.. XD

2007-10-31T10:24:00.000+08:00

i've beaten my own sleepless hours record. HAHA!! current highest record is 45mins of sleep!! and its not on my bed. i spent 15mins dozing off in the train and the other 30mins sleeping in class.. -.-

RAAHH.. so fustrated. cant log into web messenger. school comp sucks!!

2007-10-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

HARI RAYA VISTING @ Masita's PLace.

Mas invited us to her place for visiting. Which happens to be my FIRST HARI RAYA VISITING. HEE! which made me very excited. we borrowed malay traditional costumes from our classmates and happened to be malay for one day. HAHAA!!

Upon reaching her house we greeted, SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!! i think nenek was very happy with it. hahaa!! cos we were in their costume. As usual i wanted group picture to be taken. (: heee..

Part of the class. :D

Qin me & jo. XD

Dont they look like couple?? HAHAHAA

Project mates

Kar kar acting GAY!! HAHAHAAA

Guess how many pairs of shoes are there?

TARDAR!!! heres the answer

Sat was a usual Open close schedule. it was really shagged. BOO BOOO.. But still, i compeleted my 17.5hrs. :D

on sunday, i dozed off twice during service. OMG.. Met cutie MARY LAI NIAO for dinner. HEEE.. we went millenia walk's some steak house for dinner. the layout was very NICE!! it inlines with helloween theme. after dinner we went TCC for tea/coffee. (: Nice Chill out!

2007-10-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lifted some load off my shoulders. (: it feels good after saying some issues that has been troubling me. now all i've gotta focus on is my Final Year Project we've just drafted out a outline of project schedule. i hope the project supervisor would accept it.

another project on hand is giving me headache. 3D 3D.. i totally forgot how to use 3D max!! HELP!! it will be soon another weekend again. how fast! its gonna be end of 2nd week soon! we've got like 5 more weeks to complete it. i know HE will go thru this with me. for he promise not to forsake me. :D everything he did will be GOOD!

gonna meet ms konggui and lala for gym later. :D thou im still aching from yesterday's workout and swim. i sure i had some muscles working yesterday.

2007-10-23T12:02:00.000+08:00

well, i feel stress and worn out. my brain aint functioning so well these days. i just cant think properly! no creative idea filtering thru. im soo stuck in a unopen BOX! arent we suppose to think out of the box?? As we tense thru this period of time, it might be the most memorable time ever? cos this is the only time we crack our brain together. or maybe how beautiful our final product will be?

Somebody broke this comment to me. "why're ya so stressed? its so easy to pass in ITE". HELLO! i dont want a "PASS", I WANT A FREAKING GOOD GRADE TO ENSURE I GET INTO POLY!! 5 more weeks to due and presentation. im feeling all the pressure already! I really hope we'll be proud of our project.

Sorry guys, im really having a hard time here. im having headache much more frequent than usual. Lesser sleep than usual. i might not be in good mood some days.

As i was brain cracking the whole day yesterday. from school to plaza to movie to ms konggui's place. i was thinking all about possible concept we can use. BUT none came up. -.- As i got home, bath i was asking god for inspiration.. OMG! i had 2 ideas came in already!! (: idea sounds simple but why dint i think of it eariler?? PRAISE GOD!

As i attend today's lesson, theres another project coming up AGAIN! it dues on 13nov. OMG.. how am i gonna do this? i totally forgot how to use 3D MAX! SHIT.

i feel like a toilet bowl full of shit now.

i shall declare that im the rightousness of God in Chirst! For he gives me strength.

2007-10-22T10:06:00.000+08:00

Great Eastern Women Run 2007

it started out with meeting xiu at cityhall control station. I couldnt really find her cos TOO MANY people were wearing the same tee-shirt. including me.. it felt great seeing her. :D havent been seeing her for like a month? eversince she moved to wuloo wuloo NTU. haa. followed the crowd to the padang.

10km run's runner was almost reaching the finishing point. the top runners were actually from other countries. they have really slim and LONG LEGS! OMG.. no wonder they could run that fast. haha..

we had our 5km fun run. i thought it would be like super super tiring like how i ran 2.4, but it was totally opposite of it. it feels great when u pass by the 1km, 2km,3km board. it wasnt as tough as i thought. maybe because of the scenery and a partner to run with. i had a SUPER BIG BLISTER on my FEET after the run!!

it feel really good to complete the run cos we dint really stop or walked. it took up 40mins to get to the finishing line. imaging if we trained for the run? im sure we'll do better. (: had breakfast at cartel @ RC. saw ah thong there too!! OMG, what a shock. she was involved in the run too.. but as a helper.

FJ joined us after alittle while.

CHURCH.
i think the sermon was good. cos respectable pastor prince was back from the conference in hillsongs london. And i saw my EYECANDY!! OMG, SO HOT HOT!! i was serving and i saw 2 person. one of them is the TKD girl and another girl from KOONSAN! omg.. i dint even remember her until she mentioned KOON SAN!

most prob going for steamboat at ms konggui's place later. HEE. :D

Good luck to those taking O levels!! (:

2007-10-19T14:35:00.000+08:00

BOOO..

project has some how officially started. now we're brain cracking over what product should we use for project. RAHH.. im like so stress over it. help me lord. in a twitch of time, its friday again! OMG, which means i gotta report for work tomorrow. -.- And the main point is i havent really got any rest YET.

still trying to adjust to the school timetable now. BOO BOOO..

Met girlfriend last night for her shopping and dinner. her admirer got her a mug. HAHAA.. the mug writes "KISSING = COOKING." OMG, cant he get his facts right? she's attached already. is it correct to do it all behind her boyfriend's back? BE A GENTLEMEN BOY! think of her FEELINGS!

RAH,

rather excited to see xiu for the run this sunday. after that would be CHURCH!! yeah!! we'll be tearing down the rock stage. it sounds soo fun!

hmm.. i think ms eggy having her Os now.. i hope she'll do well.

JIAYOU DARLING EGGY GIRLFRIEND!!!

2007-10-18T14:08:00.000+08:00

well well, we've been preparing for one of our classmates birthday. it all begins on monday, the first day of school.

qin me and kar met up to buy a cake to surprise my darling MASSAGE-mate. HEE.. it was quite normal that im late for school. so, she dint really know what was going on. Qin msg-ed her and said she wasnt feeling well and will not be going to school.

i went to class and acted normal.. after awhile the both of them came in with a cake with lighted candles!! i think thats sooo super duper SWEET! (:

we went to celebrate her birthday on the next day. it was K-ing session again. got ourselves quite high singing some songs. im soo addicted to K now.. RAhh..

kiss kiss! our birthday tradition! HAAA.. XD

i photoshoped kar kar into this picture. XD

Finally, fat fat ivy decided to get some fats burned off. although SW was cancelled, kar kar and i went to the gym.

we sure had some muscles build up. (: IT WAS A HARDCORE DAY! cos we still went swimming after gym! we swam 8 laps!

OH God, school computer sucks! loading so freaking slowly!!! RAHHH..

2007-10-11T17:30:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN BEGINS NOW.

4 more days til school reopens. And sadly to sad i havent been updating much. due to my uptight schedule. i've been chiong-ing as per usual, be it work or play. even my manager knows it! ha..

well, sadly to say.. alot of important people are leaving. which i initally thought it work affect my attitude towards work. well, praise god. it wasnt as bad as i thought. people come in and out of my life, they're just a part of it. In anyway i can, i'll still thank them and wish them all the best in their future jobs.

alright, updating time.

went suntec for BS, but i realised there wasnt any that day. RAHH.. walked passed convention centre and saw there was a bodyshop SALES!! OMG!! how could you miss any bodyshop sales man!! grabbed a shopping bag and threw all the items i wanted in. (: SOO SOO CHEAP LAHH!! anyway, spent $43 over dollars. :P

Sun tanning was super successful! XD tanned with my old wushu mates. i missed the times staying over at her place man!!

happy ivy before tan. ((:

the after tan.

im very satisfied with my tan now. ((: im the extraordinary XIAOHEI!! HEE.

Served church on sunday. i've got my logistic trainee pass. SO COOL! HEE. i LOVE SUNDAY! it always feel stressless on sun.

CLASS BBQ

these people are insane. i think it was the whole bbq was about CHICKEN. HAA.. they bought 180 CHICKEN WINGS which was like soo OMG. And the main point was only a handful turned up. HAI.. tonned over.

slept an hour and its SUNTANNING with george at sentosa. went KTV after tanning. and i have work today. OMG.. im just totally shagged out.

2007-10-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

rah rah rah... im soo dead tired.

i've finally compeleted my full shift yesterday. its a sad thing to know that ms kongkui and ms bitchy is leaving. i would be lying if i said i will not miss them. XD i wonder how would work be without them. anyway, congrats DA BUANG. congrats on promoting to manager. he even treated us drink this noon.

well, i think.. i cant find any reason staying here soon. since those who made me stay are gone too. shall i vanish too? just pretty bored during the holidays. life seems not as colourful as the past. God bro reminded me sunday was training day. which makes me reflected back on what we always do on weekends. YES! we do go for training together on sunday. sunday now is just work and church. how dead could it be?

i hope i'll be enjoying myself on my off days. *crossfingers.

2007-09-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

alright, i shall raise a white flag. i lost. RAH.. im down with flu and cough. not a very big issue thou. but the fact that i was healthy for 2-3 yrs? well well, maybe my immune system will boost up after this lil virus. (:

i hate working seriously.. BOO BOO. all the fun people are gone. RAH. sometimes i wonder, why am i still staying there? cos im lazy to find a better job, better pay? or is it really that i dont have time to look for one? i shall promise myself to find a better job upon guaduation.

i shall say that, im much more busier than school days. now that im suppose to CHIONG thru holidays and work. but i got myself a MC. HAHAHA. met darling white and egg yesterday. it was a belated birthday celebration for me. i appreciate it very much!! thank you girls!! STONEGRILL was fantastic!! plus, the ice cream after that. it was a fat fat booster!! HAHA.. i can feel another layer of fats growing on my tummy. XD

we went for night walk at east coast. it was rather relaxing. (: i love the sea breeze!! it would be perfect if we were there eariler to witness the sunset. it would be lovely i guess.

LALAAA.. Ms eggy kept saying i love girlfriend more than her.. NONO!!! I LOVE YOU BOTH JUS AS MUCH!! I SWEAR!! cos, we've upgraded u to our GIRLFRIEND!! HAHAA.. TRIANGLE RELATIONSHIP. sounds compicated!! haha..

met sister fang for lunch today. BENS&JERRY after that at cathay. I LOVE IT LA!! dint have bens&jerry for ages. the layout was darn cool!! i suppose they'll have live band playing at night. darn COOL la!! and he nearly lost his phone!! lousy clumsy pok!! btw, we saw like 2 wushu people in a row. saw XY and YR.

finally kopi-ed with my god- bro!! ((: the last time we chilled out was on march i think? it feels good to catch up. ohhh, girlfriends.. i've been promoting u girls to him. LOL. XD super zai lah! he passed his driving lic by 1 attempt. OMG, WHY WHY~!!! so unfair lahh! hahaa.. im still stuck at prac5. and i got no cash to contiune. Anyone nice out there would like to sponcer me? hahhaa.. joking lah!

im looking forward for next sat. then we shall all flirt TOGETHER!! HAHA.. and next next tue. or is it wed? we'll gonna have CLASS BBQ!!! HURRAY!! cant wait for it to come. after all these are over..

school reopens..

CHIONG PROJECT!!!

i really hope to complete ite then poly then uni if possible. i need your SUPPORTS!!

2007-09-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

(: i'll like to thank everyone that has spend my 21th birthday with me. THANK YOU ALL! (: i really appreciate the gifts you guys gave. esp the tee shirt px, yt and fj made. it was really lovely!! (: i really alot of sweat and heart in it. i really love it. infact, i slept with it last night. XD

oh, sista.. everyone was amazed of the fact that you could "bake" or rather make mooncakes and cupcakes. what a craze.. but still, it was sweet... BUT TOOO SWEEETT!!! hahaha.. i forced them down my friends throat. XD

let me count. i've tonned since thurs to sun. average about 4-5 of sleep everyday. i ended up gg work with a pair of RED EYES! YES!!! red eye-ed MONSTER!! haha.. i've been looking forward for today!! its my OFF DAY TML!!!! WHEEEE!!!

im looking forward to meet darling EGGIES on friday. im soo excited!! and the upcoming class BBQ and K-ing session. OMG!!~ i LOVE my life now!! but, somehow i still feel lost. rahh.. so random.

oh well, it will be a tiring holiday i guess. WORK HARD AND PLAY HARD!!!! :D

2007-09-22T09:46:00.000+08:00

first of all.. i'll like to thank the wonderful classmates i have. this is indeed the golden year of school life. praise and thank god. (: for he had arranged this far ahead of anyone's expectations. now, i know how it feels like to be surprised. it feels really GOOD! ((: thank you guys!! i always thought that today was just an ordinary class outing to k-session. neither would i expect that they'll celebrate my birthday in advance! OMG.. im just SOO SOO TOUCHED!

i was wondering why the two guys went toilet for so long. or did they have a puff outside? i took a peep outside and went back k-ing. they surprised me when they played the birthday song which sounded so funny. and best of all!! a cake with lighted candles!! OMG!! im speechless!i never expect them to do such sweet stuff!

HIGH HIGH HIGH!!! the pictures will tell you the truth.PS: joan, weiqin, karheng, andy, fanliang, desmond and rahman.. I LOVE YOU GUYS!! awesome birthday!! really!! THANK YOU!! :D

went over jess's pub with ms eggy. i was still highing over my classmates celebration and we came up with this picture. SEE!!! im contented!! all i need is just a hug and maybe a kiss if possible? hahaaa. jess surprised me with another birthday song and a mug of beer on the house. -.-" which end me up burping all the way.

birthday wishes and greetings started flooded in. credits to my sis too.. she's making cupcakes for me and passing me her 4megapix camera! at least, a decent camera at last. (: today's post seems to be a very LONG one. and i am still very much HIGH about it. XD

2007-09-21T02:04:00.000+08:00

lantern see-ing was disappointing. it wasn't as beautiful as i thought. most of them were on fishy fishes. no interest in fishy stuffs lahhh.. sister! xiu said ur mooncakes were nice and it would be able to sell! heee.

staying over at xiu's hall today.

2007-09-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

my new shoes and slipper like after sooo manny donkey years!! ((: i can proudly say that these are a need, not a want. although i can buy much cheaper slippers or shoes.. i choose to buy these two. reason? i love their designs!! Esp, the onizuka tiger. BABY.. SWEET LOVELY CUTTING AND DESIGN!! XD

ohh, when i was at borders buying the shoe. i had a little conversation with the salesgirl.

ivy:do you have a size 4? (:

salesgirl:yep, were you from ftp?

ivy: (going through silently in my mind. whats ftp? and i figured it out it was my secondary sch.) oh yes! i was. were you?

salesgirl: yes, i thought you looked kind of familar. were you from wushu?

ivy: yes yes. (: what a small world.

oh my god. the world is really round man!! dint really think that im like soo.. "well known" back in secondary school? i thought they always named xingyan and seeteng as the wushu well knowns. haha.. not bad ehh.. i have abit of reputation tooo!

this weekend seems packed. latern see-ing at chinese gardens later with xiu, K-session with classmates on fri, dinner with EX-cartel mates on sat and window shopping on sun. (:

2007-09-18T12:58:00.000+08:00

Let the pictures Speak. :D

we had a very enjoyable time yesterday. (: although everything was VERY VERY LAST MIN. XD that makes it VERY VERY fun. cos we were rushing everywhere to get her present.

((: HAPPY SWEET 20 xiu!! haha.. never never put sweet 40 when you're 40! LOL! sounds so disgusting. corny thou.. i think our idea was quite sweet.(: we bought 20 gifts for her in total. i think most gifts are practical? haha. anyway, i LOVE the photos we took yesterday. ((:

I LOVE XIU, FJ AND MIMIYAN!!! SOO SOOO FUN!!

2007-09-13T09:36:00.000+08:00

went to meet up with sis.

here's a video of my lovely nephew having a tough fight with "zhou gong".

hes wearing a side of my sis's slipper! SO CUTE!!

he insisted of pushing his own bike all the way thru and back from pounggol plaza. what a good boy!! (: he'll push my hand away and say NO, when i wanna help him push.

the wake up look. GAI GAI LOR!!! dress up!!

baby sophia. the one who always wants people to carry her.

2007-09-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

i was rearranging my photos last night. group those pic i LOVED into a folder and saved it in my thumbdrive. ((: im so proud of it.

preview of it.

click for a better view. (:

went sista's place today. both my nephew and niece are soo sooo CUTE!! ESP, hiro.. i shall upload some of the pictures really soon. sista realised she forgot the keys when we were out for dinner. -.- KUA KUA KUA KUA...... anyway, we made our way back to her place and she nearly got hit by a high floored KILLER LITTER! wad a jerk.

HIRO is sticking to me like finally??? ((: great day with them! (: oh yah, btw sis.. U MAKE REALLY NICE CUPCAKES!! (: