Vespa!
Monday, May 01, 2006
hai.. past few daes.. there were qns.. i needed advices frm.. i scrolled down my phonebk... i realise.. there was no 1 that i could approach. tt was kinda sad.. it really hard to approach someone n tell them ur probs.. i realise eversince.. i was gave up by a "fren" i turned out to be a loner. i started to believe i can survive alone.. tts y i practise to be independent..

Yvonne.. stop telling me how much u need a fren. coz i've been there too.. aft tt lesson. yes.. i've learnt to be indenpendent.i can eat alone, study alone, shop alone n even train alone. cos i found it much happier. YD once told me.. im too dependent on frenz.. as in emotionally.. aft a broke down i din have tt plc in my heart again. teng noe wad im talking abt..

so.. aft one by one.. those who i tot was my buddies.. where were they? i dun put so much trust in anyone now. i'll jus take it as they're jus a passer-by in my life. until they leave great impressions..

i think it'z really true tt we usually treat a stranger better than our love ones. i can tell you. I really love my mum.. but, i jus dun express it. but deep down i really loved her. i dun wan her to get bullied by assholes.. but my attitude towards her is cold.

my sis.. we used to loved each n other. but now.. its a unknown. she did things i really hated.. its jus as if she left our family n never wanna come back again. HELLO...!! think back! where were u frm? it really hurts me to see mummy waiting for you to come back n visit her at home. Everytime she think those were the (good)things tt were done by you blast me off. i really wonder why i hate u so much.. we used to be soo close when we were younger.. like as if there was super glue..

argh... jus whining.. dun care about me..


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