i admit that that the prev post was written in a moment of anger. im stubbon, full of pride.. when ian knows about that she sms-ed me. and even girlfriend called me. Well, i think most of them has decided to stay. But im not gonna do that. I will not go back to the place that i left.

I heard that one of the managers cried. for wad? cos we're one of them whom they actually trained? ian told me to put myself in their shoes and think.. yes, i'll be sad if those im training are leaving. BUT, all these ppl will still have to leave some day. I admit, Station doesnt pay me as well as "c". There's a pay drop. but i dont mind.

And this decision wasnt any harsh or sudden decision. i've been wanting to change a enviroment. It was jus that i dint had the time to look for one. And i think im gonna try this out no matter wad. i really dun understand why do they wanna stay? For that one reason? FRIENDSHIPS? BONDS? The only person i missed.. will be girlfriend and nobody else. Although a part of me cant bear to leave.. Since they want us to make a choice between c and station. i'll rather give a shot at station.

All these while i've been thinking.. C or station. somebody said.. "there's 1 reason that made u wanna leave, but there're more reasons to make you stay." I thought over and over. is there more reasons to stay then to leave? They things that i cant bare is girlfriend and being DB.

Today will be my 1st day there.. A&C are not joining me. I shall be there alone. i shall try to be as brave like the 1st day i reported to C for work. Everything shall start afresh for me.