farewell niang and adrian.. both of them gonna serve the nation on the same day. haha.. i wonder would they be each other's bung mate. anyway, after some "laojiaos" left this place seems to be extremely dead. :(( esp sonny and adrian. and this batch of newbies.. *shakehead* REALLY JUST CANNOT MAKE IT. rah..

i was soo pissed off working on wed or fri i cant remember. i've lost track of time. what's yesterday, the day before and today? totally lost tracked of them. everyday seems the same working. oh anyway, this new guy totally pissed me off. he's really darn useless! he was suppose to go around clearing plates for me. it was lunch crowd and the turn over should be fast. ensuring customers has a clean table to dine in. but this ass doesnt do his feaking job! He scanned thru empty plates and walked away. WTH..

i personally cleared my table for 8's plates before the desserts were sent. 8 freaking plates. and hes still not doing his job! i was about to blow out.. i told the DR on shift to talk to him. but the DR ended up clearing my tables for me by himself. -.-

some of them are worst. in the midst of work, when into the cashier counter.. took out a mirror.. omg.. then again.. check phone. its like.. HELLO!! are u working??? i seriously dont think the deserve the pay they should get. wanna slack? go macs or smth. we need ppl who can seriously WORK.

whois . ???

pls have ur name typed if u're tagging. Anyway, been using my energy to work it off. :) working 6 days this week. impressive eh? ha. going imm to work tml. just for a day.. :)) hope it's really gonna be smooth.

I NEEDA SHOP!!

Gosh.. i wanna buy num's slipper, jacket and shades from topshop. so much on my shopping list!!! oh ya, i gotta return sm's cash and buy her a new wallet. AAAAhhh..~ :((

i was clearing my room that day, decided to throw stuffs away. including the half bited dried roses by miko, the useless dusty balloon and some other stuffs. feeling much better after that. ha.. decided to throw and not return. :)

我希望這次真的是死心了.

everyday seems to be a emo day..

anyway, thanks to those who have been showing concern. thanks.. really.

can you hear that sound??
that soft but painful sound?

yea.. heartache.

had tarot card reading by boon in the school lib just now. it was quite accurate.. quited surprised actually.. have been in disorder these day. spending money on unnecessary stuffs. thats just a way to divert my focus away. the 2nd card was on.. some young guy? ha.. -.- Rah..

going for andro party later.. i wonder how would it be like. my first time to such party.. haha. well, guess i'll most probably get drunk today. if i could.. haha..

RAH!

SILLY

SILLY GIRL!

some disgraceful stuffs to mention. i teared ytd. Ian could see it the moment she saw me. -.-" very obvious meh? Pls.. dont mention the 3 words if u dont mean it.

should let it go?

the above was my emotism about.

just another emo day...

im feeling sorry for what i've said and done. i know i dont have the right to interfer who you're seeing.. blah blah.. i always hate it when *lets name this person X* X's around. Just simply irritating. they were discussing if a someone leaves for 7 yrs. would you wait for him/her? X mentioned that i wont even wait for a week for him. i defended myself saying. yup.. Im realistic in life. But deep down.. i regreted. i knew i might hurt someone beside me. why am i so dumb? i was thinking.. if he had given me a reason to wait.. i will.. BUT HE DINT.

Enough of it. i always thought im tough.. both in physical or mentally way.. but, i've found out.. im no longer this tough anymore. im more of a zui yin xin ruan person. anyway, i dont think its possible lar. ben dan xiaohei!! there were so much things i wanted to blog about. well.. seems like this emotism is killing me.

lord, deliver me out of my situation.

dont need to wait for the sun to shine
dont need to wait for the cloud to clear
i'll still sing i know that my god you're so good
i praise you
you are for me
i praise you
yes you love me
i praise you
you are faithful
you see me thru.