It always felt GOOD to be back at his presence.

It has been since a long long time i last attended service with my CG. I sms-ed the girls last night asking them if they would join us for 4th, only 2 replied. i was trying to do what im suppose to do as a befriender. well, only a handful turned up from my CG.

Saw coach B while walking over to the queue, he had a word with me. And i thought it was gonna be serious, cos the prev time was a counselling session with him. HAHA. :P I was glad that he understood my situation. He knew about the contract i signed, the best part was.. asking me to trust God for the time with him and do not feel condemn or guilty if i couldnt attend church but keep feeding on his word. That's what im really going through man.

Ohh, what really touched me was RUTH. What a nice girl.. she makes me feels at home even though we're from different CG. that's the difference between the world and the kingdom of God.

After speaking to Long-ge, i think i should really make time and progress to YSWA. I feel really undernourished and dry. TIME TO GET BACK INTO HIS WORD AND FEED ON IT. SEE WHATS THE WORD FOR THIS SEASON.

My 3rd time watching Army daze. :D its still the best local production ever!! I still remember the first time i watched it was YEARS ago. Like when i was 10 or 11 years old? Argh.. mentioning about Age, why is it so sensitive? ROARS

Oh well anyways, i've got to enjoy watching Army daze in my ROOM!! YES!! (: TV back in service for precious Ivy. Finally bought a replacement remote control which cost $9.50.

Ivy LOVES staying in her room now. (:

I was browsing through my files and came through a sad ringtone. "没有你的每一天" i think it's a chinese version of a korean song titled "Because I'm a Girl".



没有你的每一天 (徐婕兒)
回家的路總是很遠 話少得很可憐
一個人的晚餐 都是孤單的滋味
看見身邊重复上演 屬於我們的畫面
選擇逃避的眼 怎麼還是會流淚

愛著你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那時候還以為 我就愛這一遍
没有你的每一天 快樂離我好遙遠
心已隨你走了 還能用什麼感覺

我捨不得睜開眼睛 害怕身邊没有你
也許在夢境裡 是我們最近的距離
想念你温熱的手心 冷風裡把我握緊
當冬天又來臨 這温度該怎麼延續

謝謝你曾經愛過我 給我最美的經過
但生命最愛被剝奪 未來的路該怎麼走

English version
Everyday Without You (Jill Xu)
The road home is always far, it's a pity words are few
In a single-person dinner, the flavor is only loneliness
At my side, I see the movie repeating, it belongs to our frame
Why do eyes that choose to avoid still cry tears?

Loving you everyday, you are my world
At that time, I still thought I would only love this once
Everyday without you, happiness is so far away from me
My heart has already left with you, what can I still use to feel?

I can't bear to open my eyes, afraid that you're not by my side
Perhaps in dreams, the distance between us is the closest
I miss your warm palms, I'm embraced by a cold wind
When winter comes again, how will this temperature continue?

Thank you for having loved me, giving me a most beautiful experience*
But life loves to be deprived, how should I walk these future roads?

Arrhhh.. PRIASE GOD. Misunderstanding CLEARED. (: I've heard what i wanted to hear. EHBA EHBA EHBA~

BEC WAS KILLER/CHICKENFEET. dint expect Vivienne to be one of the invigilators. The moment i went in i was like.. "HEY.. HI VIVIENNE!" the other course mates was like.. "SHHHHhhhHHHHh.." HAHAHA. i guess i disturbed them. :P she was like.. hey, i was just talking about you with somebody. HOR!! CHINGLING! SHE MENTIONED YOUR NAME! HAHAA..

Oh, my OH SO BELOVED colleague went for course and im so lonely during work. BLEAH. Luckily i had some of the regulars, PT and supervisor to entertain me. Ha.. I just snapped a picture today. This is what we do when we are bored.. even Sharpening Pencil could entertain her.


The Tangled Unbroken Chain

Enjoying sharpening

I saw my Ex-cartel colleague Weichen on the train, he was sleeping so i snap his picture and MMS it over to him to show that i saw him on the train. MUAHAHA.. Poor boy, so tired.

Sophia at 14 months old! she could manage to play the playground on her own!! she even recites "UP" every step she took. SO CUTE!

not to forget.. my CRAZY BUT LOVEABLE YET IRRITATING DOG.. It applies to certain people only. HAHAHAA..

Daddy, i thank you for EVERY MISSING the mark, you will PROVIDE ANOTHER 5 BULLSEYE!

I BELIEVE IT SHALL COME TO PASS BECAUSE YOUR GOODNESS SURPASSES ME.

GRACE GRACE!!

i think after relasing this picture, most prob those whom i did not mention to i've quited cartel and ingram micro. Yeah.. this is my new job. Still dont get it? too bad. (:

HEADLINES TO REPORT.

1. WORK ISSUE AGAIN
2. ATTENDED MANDRAIN SERVICE
3. EX-TPA CGL CONTACTED ME


ARGH.. Some issues raised about again. I dont get it why is it til further notice? I just dont get it and im expecting a explaination. is it because of my performance? tell me straight at my face then.

attended mandrian service with both my collegues. 1st time attending mandrian service after so so long. although i couldnt understand the terms but could roughly estimate what he was preaching. Needed time to translate in my mind. haa.

My first friend(EX TPA CGL) in arrow CALLED me! so suprised please! (: we realised that we're facing the same problem. Yes, we're trusting daddy for the same thing, trusting for time to get back into his kingdom. Sometimes this trust fades off till its so shallow and you couldnt believe in it.

theres where my fav verse comes in. HEBREW 11:1 - the explaination of FAITH FAITH.. a substance that you cant see but knowing(assureance) it will come to pass. As the Lord said, he will prepare a feast right infront of my enemies. WHY? STRESSFREE BATTLE. BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN DEFEATED BY THE BLOOD OF JESUS! DECLARE it! Look into the ROOT OF LOVE-JESUS. he LOVEd me so much that he actually became weak, poor, ugly on the cross so that i can have his strength, richess and beauty of him. The crown on his head sheading blood is an exchange as well, "blood sweatless life"(Stop trying to WORK it out your way, STOP AND LISTEN.. it's by his GRACE).

We always have the wrong impression of God being harsh on his people, punishing them and some believe in karma aka retribution. RUBBISH, my saviour is a loving, caring and passionate GOD. HE NEVER PULLS ME DOWN, BUT BRINGS ME UP. Im high above all principlity because of the redemption of christ. Therefore im GREATLY BLESSED, HIGHLY FAVORED AND DEEPLY LOVED by Him.

RAH.. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.

I just have to keep reminding myself that im the beloved child of His. And im ALWAYS FIGHTING FROM VICTORIOUS GROUND. Because Jesus had paid the price for me.

Knowing what you are, how you stand plays a big part in your appearance. it actually shows how strong, solid and confident you are. and not to mention, your trustworthy-ness. I've change my msn nick from Daddy's little girl to DADDY's PRECIOUS Ivy. It just reflects how precious i am to Him. ((:

Okay, pictionary time! I do the showing you do the captions kay?

WHOAOHOOOO!!! CREDITS TO DADDY GOD!

Life is like a SEE-SAW man.. and im sure i dont want to be a SEE and SAW christian. That's why knowing the ROOT of love is important. I want to stand still and FIRM in Daddy's Love. Only in him can i find comfort.

Anway, life hasnt been easy for me. Ups and Downs, Excited and dissapointment, High and Low.. I was talking to Joseph(CGL) the other day that i think i've made the wrong choice. The more i walk, the more lost i am. The more i insist things to be, the more it goes headwire.

I was telling him about the problems that surfaced in work. And i regreted that i couldnt spend time to sit down(REST) with Daddy God. well, he told me that sometimes Daddy speaks through leaders and i dint listen to him.

Ahhh.. you know how it feels like? just like someone smacked you on the face and say see.. dont listen la? But he brought the point across that Daddy knows we learn better through HARD KNOCKS. yah.. im KNOCKING HARD RIGHT INTO IT. But, Daddy never gives up, he will bring me through out of it and he will STILL BLESS ME ABUNDENTLY! AMEN? SHOUT AMEN!!

I was worried about certain stuffs. Like the target.. Been trusting Daddy to crack the BIG ZEROOOO. But it dint seem coming. i dont even know how to approach people, cant even speak good english, stutter at every sentence, inconfident.. I felt so tiny.

PRAISE DADDY GOD! THE ZERO WAS BROKEN TODAY!!! ((: HE'S FAITHFUL! I BELIEVE MORE WILL COME.

Joseph asked me to meditate on Luke 8. i still couldnt figure it out what is it thats try to tell me about. DADDY, I PRAY FOR WISDOM.. YOUR WISDOM.. and your CHARIS! CHARISMA.

Secondhand Serenade » Fall For You Lyrics


The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Gospel Revolution (Youth Worship Album) <- im so gonna get you!!

Had combine youth concert today. It was super duperly AWESOME!! I was late and a little lost looking for my seat. It was like a mini "The Zone". Anyway, for those who doesnt know the zone, it was a christian concert. We had Hillsongs Australia here for that concert early this year. it was HOT and Anointing.

But for our combine concert, we sang all of NCC creations. NICEE!! It really take God to wrote those songs man. There was a holy presence that i do not know how to describe in words.. It's like an embrace of the holy spirit. Being loved by God, Knowing how much you meant to Him.. Which cost his son's life to exchange for mine. That blood he shed on the cross, that redeems me from every curse, every negative thoughts and every sickness and diseases.

There was just such a STRONG presence of him. Melting my heart, Changed my mind again and tears just flowed down uncontrollably. knowing it is by his grace and not by my works. The concert lasted for about 2.5hours. could imagine how many songs we sang.. haha.

whoaaaOOOOOOHHHH.. whoooAAAhhOOOooooHHH.. He'll never forsake me!