John 14:27
27Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you… Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

hmm.. this was in daily devotional a few days back. let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. I was attending itecg last week and somehow i felt that im being forced to move on. Yes, i thought i was ready to move on. but the actual fact was im not ready at all. Getting into a new cg is like getting everything started all over again. make new friends, adapt into the new kind of environment that i'll be in. True adulthood.

I've joined them for service for the very first time yesterday. i felt so out of place, maybe it just takes time. Daddy God, im gonna put my faith in you that whatever the outcome is, it's just gonna be GOOD in your name.

on sat, when pastor ben was preaching.. the word "bond" came and stirred my mind. everytime when there's a BOND, it bound to have a BONDAGE. Which is what im feeling right now. there's a trap unseen, but you know there's one. the feeling is horrible cos it felt like as thou you're trapped.

But i guess, the holy spirit revealed somethings to me. If it's a bondage, Jesus Christ has bored it all. it may seem like a bondage in papers(black & white), but He'll always be with me although i've made mistakes. HE'LL ALWAYS SEE IT THROUGH, BECAUSE HE'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME AND HE LOVES ME SO MUCH!

the phrase, "bondage to fear" just came into my mind. when i was typing "fear" i mistype "f" as "d". i had a new revelation. HE DOES'NT WANT US TO FEAR HIM BECAUSE WE'RE SO DEAR TO HIM.