im running dry again. i know i shouldn't let such things affect me but all these things are so real! im gonna hit my 2nd month of ZERO again! moral has even gone down more. although i confessed that im the righteousness of God and everything shall go right in Jesus' name.

But it isn't coming at all. Daddy God.. why is it so? Daddy God, can you bring me by the collar and dip me into your river of grace again? like in the month of September. I've confess that although it may be SLOW, BUT IT WILL SURELY COME. my faith is being shaken by such a small issue. How could this be so?

Daddy God, im gonna ASK abundantly. YOU"RE GONNA BLESS ME A TOTAL OF 3MTHS QUOTA SALES NEXT MONTH! and you shall give more than i asked for! (:

AMEN! by Jesus' blood!

CHUI AH

practical test was ARGH..(stated as above).

Anyways, EXAM FEVER IS(PRESENT TENSE) finally OVER!! im not gonna worry about the outcome. Because it would not even change the fact that i'll either pass or fail. so why not spend all these worrying time to START focusing on WORK. YES! WORK! STOP LAZING AROUND IVY!

Now that i dont have to stick my eyes on my textbook anymore, i hope i'll have more time, energy(physically and mentally) and FAVOR to do all these things i've been missing out. like my trainings. GOSH.. getting soo soo fat.

UPdates about cg.
still unfamiliar with names and faces. well, like i said.. when there's quality in a place it will SURELY multiply fruitfully but just that how many of this multitude are FAITHFUL?

i think this apply to my company as well. i think they should really treasure those who are faithful. Raise their platform for goodness sake. i've thought over it. is PT a QUALITY SERVICE? if it is, it will surely XXXXX!! MULTIPLY. well, i think i really still need some time to polish up myself. or rather, let the christ in me shine at work. (:

Joseph told me that on the month of sept, God showed grace to me. i asked he gave. And maybe because it was the revelation i had before that and God gave. well, renew my revelation Lord. Let everyday be a fresh day and have a refreshing sense of love everyday.

ONLY PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT FEAR.

:D

Fic....

i was praying all along that Jesus will be the one doing the exams. :P i was pretty stressed up before the exam until i realized. only if i gave up, he takes over. i dont care what are the outcome like. i'll just believe that he had did a great job for me. i'll just accept the result when its out. (:

i had a soft and strong affirmation voice in me. He told me, ask boldly and i'll get. he assured me a position. and a dream car i had in mind. i dont know how is it gonna be done. but im just gonna flow with this word i have with him now.

Daddy God, i really pray that you see what i really desire and grant me all of the benefits that you have promised. like wisdom, long life, prosperity and.. you know it. (: AND SALES!

"ask and you shall be given." (:

thank you daddy God!

after so much shaking and lies from the devil. the light has overcome the darkness. Im feeling so much better after today's cg. although im just a visitor. im glad Daddy anointed my fingers and my guitar. i know i cant play by myself.

the burden got lifted up my shoulders. And i know that my foundation is on the unshakable rock. my emotion might be shaken by the world, but i have to always look back at my foundation which i come from.

his word is unshakable. His promises are TRUE. The devil has lost his tooth over me! FIC is just 5 days away. im sure Daddy God will not forsake me at this moment of time. In this moment of trial, let his grace, power and love be shined upon me! let the people of the world see and envy this child of God. Knowing, by myself i cant do anything. but it's his Love that makes all things possible by God.

Thank you Jesus for the blood for redeeming me and making me the heir of the inheritance that God has promised.