ARGH!

im so sick of dieting and disciplining myself to workout. totally feel like giving up and not do the demo and draw myself out from Miss Fitness. It's really depressing when people with HUNKY MUSCULAR BODIES telling you, "You have alot to work on cos of ur BABYFATS". i know im fat alright? if i ever fall into depression i'll feel so STUPID.

im lacking of energy. mentally and physically. i cant even do 70lb squat! what the heck? my strongest was like loading 50-60kg into the bar. compared to it, i feel so lousy now! totally lack of motivation.