I declare this day to be an AWESOME THURSDAY! (:

1st of all, I had enough sleep. 2ndly I woke up on time for work! 3rdly, I heard Pastor Lian preaching in my ipod. :D

I'm listening to Pastor Lian's message now (where is God?). This is such a GOOD message! I don't remember hearing the full message of this sermon maybe I fell asleep. But, praise God for e technology we have now. (:

This phrase really broke my day into excitement & joy. "In every situations you are in, God is with you IN that situation. Bring Jesus in." And "exceedingly abundantly above all you ask or think of according to the power at works in us... "

To be real to myself, I have such days that are so DRY! I face situations at work, be it quotas, people I meet & the expectations I have in myself. I felt so tiny & weak, even though I asked God to keep me safe for the day & bless me in every aspect that I'm in.

But every time I look back. It isn't because I have "DONE". It was because I dint live the expectation of God in those situations I lived in.

"In every situations you are in, God is with you IN that situation. Bring Jesus in."

I'm just gonna hold on to this word and chew on this TODAY! (: GOD IS WITH ME IN EVERY SITUATION I AM IN.

As I was walking my way out of my estate, crossing the traffic light.. A bird poo dropped and MISSED me in just a few CMs!! WHAO! Then today's devotional came ALIVE to me!! HE DELIVERED ME OF BIRD POO IN JUST AFEW MINS AGO!

"  Psalm 91:33

Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence. "

I declare this day to be an AWESOME THURSDAY! (:

1st of all, I had enough sleep. 2ndly I woke up on time for work! 3rdly, I heard Pastor Lian preaching in my ipod. :D

I'm listening to Pastor Lian's message now (where is God?). This is such a GOOD message! I don't remember hearing the full message of this sermon maybe I fell asleep. But, praise God for e technology we have now. (:

This phrase really broke my day into excitement & joy. "In every situations you are in, God is with you IN that situation. Bring Jesus in." And "exceedingly abundantly above all you ask or think of according to the power at works in us... "

To be real to myself, I have such days that are so DRY! I face situations at work, be it quotas, people I meet & the expectations I have in myself. I felt so tiny & weak, even though I asked God to keep me safe for the day & bless me in every aspect that I'm in.

But every time I look back. It isn't because I have "DONE". It was because I dint live the expectation of God in those situations I lived in.

"In every situations you are in, God is with you IN that situation. Bring Jesus in."

I'm just gonna hold on to this word and chew on this TODAY! (: GOD IS WITH ME IN EVERY SITUATION I AM IN.

As I was walking my way out of my estate, crossing the traffic light.. A bird poo dropped and MISSED me in just a few CMs!! WHAO! Then today's devotional came ALIVE to me!! HE DELIVERED ME OF BIRD POO IN JUST AFEW MINS AGO!

"  Psalm 91:33

Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence. "

As I was meditating on what pastor mark preached yesterday. I realised that ALL THE WHILE, I've been too HARD on myself. Why do I keep others secret so well was because I kept my own darkest secrets well. Pastor was preaching about parental love. I really love the part where he could link an act of love of a earthly father and our heavenly father.

Years ago, I remember there was a overseas preacher who was preaching in e prospective of a earthly father. Saying that the children looks up to their father, respect their fathers. At that moment, I thought that message was crap because I've never really received any fatherly love and I felt that the message wasn't for me.

But as pastor was preaching yesterday, tears just flowed down. I was being separate from my family for a period of time, time to time.. I changed accommodations, meaning different houses, different guardians. I've never really knew what was parental love.

At the age of 13, I moved back with my mum. Our relationship was so bad that...... She "may" be a key figure in my life as my mum, but she has her flaws too. I never felt she should have authority over me when she had no contribution for e past 7yrs away from me.

I realized after yesterday's preaching that how impt LOVE is. Nobody have ever said they love me, that was why I became a person with least emotions. Being very hard of myself. All I ever wanted to do is only do things that benefited myself. A lot of self efforts. But still I thank Daddy God for his grace that he delivered me out. I realized that, it is so impt to hear "I LOVE YOU" out of that person's lips rather than just "knowing" he/she should love you. Its easy to say "Jesus loves me" but its different when he says "I LOVE YOU IVY". (:

Ps: Daddy God, teach me how to love myself. How can I love others when I can't even love myself?